How COVID-19 is affecting me

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Restrictions?  Do you mean, "Stay indoors, avoid crowds, and shop only when necessary"?

The only difference for me from a year ago is that now I wear a mask.

Not everyone goes to prom.

Thus far, that I know of, the only changes caused by coronovirus that affect my "life":

Library closed until further notice. Can't check out books. Or computer. Can't apply for jobs.

Counseling closed until further notice

Health center closed until further notice

Aikido closed until further notice

Bus free and Sunday schedule. Bus often says "drop off only" if it is too crowded. Paranoid of reduced bus service after quart

Newly unemployed will be competing with me for government benefits and jobs

Waiting in line six feet away makes me impatient and uptight

Plagued with anxiety that after the quarantine a lot of business will go out of business. More applicants competing for fewer jobs.

Can't go to public bathrooms. Not many things are open. The ones that are open have long lines going in. Even home Depot.

Worried about $$ but too lazy to do anything about it because it's like the Titanic. Nothing you do will prevent jack, so whatever

If it weren't for the tragic reasons behind this change in society, I wish it would stay (almost) like this forever.

The differences that I do notice:

I miss my beau and can't see him, even though we were just starting a really good relationship.

I can't see my mother and she's stuck alone in her house with no smartphone or computer for shopping or video chats. She can't use her arms at all because she was due to have her shoulders replaced. She can't even brush her own hair or put on a bra / get dressed. She has a hard time to open or cook any of the food she does have. I feel horrible for other seniors in her position. What are people supposed to do if they don't use computers?

I have always done grocery delivery and curbside pick up but now it's at least a month between orders because the spots are filled up for a month or more (in most cases, the websites are full until mid-May, and aren't even taking new orders past then). I'm not out of food but I don't know what will happen if this continues.

I have pneumonia so I can't leave the house at all, to even try shopping for myself.

I have to keep my house spotlessly clean, and sanitise everything nonstop.

I spend a lot of time worrying about others in my family who are immunocompromised.

Otherwise, to be honest it's not really a change to my lifestyle. I'm content to stay indoors like the autistic I am.

Last edited by IsabellaLinton on 13 Apr 2020, 7:37 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I share that same sentiment in a way, but It’s not just those things that are going on with people everywhere. Re-read the OP. There’s a lot of sucky things that I listed that myself and/or many other people are dealing with. Along with:

People getting laid off
Businesses losing $
Grocery store employees having to work extra hours
People who really have to stay at home bc they have Carona or they had an exposure.
Family members not getting to see their loved ones before they die.
Etc.

You're right, that is really sucky for them. I'm in one of those "essential services", so I still have to go to the office, and may have already had a mild case of the virus. Again, the main difference for me is that I have to wear a filter-mask when I go outside.

I get what y’all are saying. Me on the other hand, just knowing that there’ll be no opportunities for me to meet new people for a while is a big trigger for my sadness. There’s been times where I see an attractive female in public and it reminds me of my desire for a romantic relationship, and that there’s no opportunities for that either, which makes me feel sad.

Isabella, I’m sorry you’re dealing with all that.

Thanks. If I could help my mother and stop worrying about other people, everything would be fine for me. Nothing else has really changed in my life, because I live a very low key lifestyle. Oh, one problem is I CAN'T STAND wearing rubber gloves because of sensory / autistic reasons. Luckily I don't go anywhere to need them.

I just learned today that I had an exposure with someone who’s positive.

They might be taking away all the money they’ve given me from PUA because I might not be able to prove I was was working.
I was an apprentice so never filed a W-4, I have no paper trail to my shop. I’ve been really needing money to get out of my house. It’s just my narcissistic parents and me, they’ve destroyed my soul long enough. I’m anxious about not being able to even get through to someone to even clarify this.
I’m in the process of filing for SSI. Things will work out regardless of these results. I just feel like my life is up in the air and I dont know what to do about it. I feel so alone during these times.

Worry.
Losing trust in information given by official sources.

The way I see it, if a person doesn't have significant health issues to worry about, the next thing they're going to worry about is their job and financial position. So the people who aren't in the high risk group aren't being selfish by worrying about the economy, it's just that the thought of losing your job and even your home and relying on government support to survive is also frightening. This can cause mental health problems and poverty can kill people. You need money to live in this society.

Tbh, I don’t really see missing out on an amusement park and a couple trips as That big of deal. BUT, that’s because they’re not the things I’m missing out on. Obvi everyone is going to have things that they feel very strongly about so they’re The Biggest deal to *them.* but I’d rather just be missing out on an amusement park and a couple trips than my list.

My sex life has gone from.. very active to 0 since the end of June. That’s an adjustment. I haven’t bothered to even login to chat with anyone in a couple weeks because what’s the point rn? Just kinda a little depressed over it.

I haven’t seen Most of my friends in half a year +. I usually go to the beach 5-7 days a week after work and have only been there a few times this year.

I didn’t work for like 5 months and got a little weak and soft. Rebuilding strength now. Missing work means my apprenticeship is delayed - both in skills progression & wage.

Three babies have been born and I haven’t been able to meet any of them yet. One girl to my cousin, another girl to a different cousin, and a boy to my high school best friend (who’s kids are my God kids that I am Very close with - basically their 3rd parent I was around so much for their youngest years) so it’s very difficult not to have met the new addition yet.

I’ve hardly seen any of my God kids for the last half year.

7 friends and family have died. Not covid - Old age, tragic accidents, suicide. We had to delay some funerals and one I wasn’t allowed to attend due to covid rules on that region and then the online live steam didn’t work. At another, outdoors in perfect sunny weather, I couldn’t hug my 12yo Godson, Jordan, who’s pregnant mother (my cousin) just died in a car accident. One friend that was taken in a hit & run car accident as a pedestrian I’ve been thinking about a Lot lately - I have never cried more at the loss of any other human in my life, Ever. I am so thankful to have had the honour to speak at his funeral on behalf of the beach - where he was a very prominent member of the community. It was the most spiritual funeral service Ever and just the right words flows through me like lightning.. it was a Moment. His martial arts community friends were moved to tears and several of them thanked me and shook my hand. His parents both thanked me for my words independently. That part I cherish - so they’ve at least been some good things over this covid time.

I could have gone kiteboarding this Summer, but I wasted my time on ptsd instead. It’s been a couple years. I’m so over this s**t and have been telling myself that for months. But I really am. I’m ready for some positive change and to move forward from this time sucking state of mind. I have work to do and fun to have. I also have business to take care of - 3 open insurance claims - and once I stop procrastinating and deal with all the emails they’ll cut me a couple cheques for over 9 grand; but I’ve been too distracted by my thoughts and the news cycle to bother with it for half a year. I did email them today, though. Then there are investment opportunities I haven’t kept on top of due to fun fun repetitive daily ptsd thoughts stealing my present moments and wasting my time.

I had to stop going to physio for my shoulder 6 months ago. Fortunately the 5+ months off work of total slack time was actually Incredibly healing for my shoulder so it’s Most of the way good now. But still, thanks to covid I haven’t pursued another therapy option to see if it helps Because I don’t want to go breathe the air in a physio gym with other people. I’ve skipped out on scheduling a dental cleaning for the same reason. Haven’t had a haircut since ~Christmas time, either. Not essential; but I kinda miss a fresh crisp cut.

My Godson Jordan asked if we could go rent some atv’s or dirt bikes and if we could go snowboarding this winter. His dad just had his knees replaced and will never be able to do these things with him. Of course I said yes, Jordan, But I cant promise it’ll be this year - thanks to covid. Depends on if things are even open and then what the covid numbers and risk factors are. It Sucks not to just be able to say “f**k yeah, kid! Let’s go for a rip!” especially since he’s had a very rough year with losing his mom and all the rest he’s dealt with.

All of this extreme social distancing not because I think covid is gonna kill me, but because I rent from my parents & share the house with them. They’re both ~66/67 and my father has terminal cancer and several risk factors that make him quite immunocompromised & Very high risk and thus I give myself no other option but to be extremely cautious so as not to get & spread covid and accidentally kill my father sooner than the cancer will take him. He just had another surgery last week. Praying he’s good for a long while yet. 2-3 years ago they told him 5-10 years.

My birthday just passed. I’d have liked to have spent it with one or more of my God kids this year, but couldn’t. Instead, I pretty much ignored that it was my bday and spent the entire day/eve putting a roof on a summer cabin at a lake before it started raining.

I’d rather miss out on a season at an amusement park and a couple family trips. The grass is always greener, I suppose.