Why can't I just keep my big mouth shut?
Well I'm now scared to open my mouth when I'm around him. To me it sounds like workplace threatening and I don't need it in my life. I love my job, I've been wanting to work there years ago and when I finally got offered the job I was so happy. But he spoils everything for me. Always telling me off about something that doesn't require a telling off. He's either flirting with me or yelling at me, there's no inbetween. It's causing unneeded stress that I don't need on top of all the other stresses I have.
If someone is off sick he shouts and swears and panics because he thinks that no work will get done, but if there's one person less we can still get it all done. Then he yells at me for coming in to work! What does this guy want?
And I've been called a snowflake on Facebook (by someone I don't even know) for my mental health issues that is caused by the pandemic. He said that our grandparents "got on with it" during the war and didn't whine about it on social media. What a dumbass. First of all they didn't have social media in those days, second of all a lot of people did get traumatized and some even turned to alcoholics by the time the war ended, and third, a lot of people back then didn't have the freedom anyway like we do today, and most of us weren't even alive during the war so we don't really know how bad they must have been feeling. And mental health wasn't really a known thing back then but they probably still suffered mental health problems but there weren't names for it like there is today.
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It seems my supervisor just picks on ME. Somebody else has done a COVID test for the same reason as me, peace of mind, yet my supervisor never yelled at him. Just me. It's like he's gaslighting me or something, making me feel like I'm doing the wrong thing all the time. But I'm scared to say anything to the office staff about the situation because he told me not to tell anybody and I don't want to stir things up. He just wants to make my life miserable.
I just feel so isolated. I don't think I can take this pandemic restrictions much longer. I want to see my family. I want to see my mum. I don't know how long I have with her due to cancer and I want to physically be with her. But I can't go and see her because we'll probably be stopped by police and fined for traveling out of our district, and we can't afford to pay a fine. The government is prolonging this virus by not closing the borders and letting people bring new variants of the virus in from other countries. So really they don't give a s**t about saving lives, otherwise they'd do a much better job at protecting us.
I've had an argument with my boyfriend because of his continuous coughing all night keeping me awake and I was trying to tell him that if he didn't start up smoking again he wouldn't be coughing so much. But he just shouted "YOU GO ON AND ON ABOUT THE SAME THING!! !" I hate it when people say that when I'm trying to get a point across and they won't listen. He's already been in hospital 3 times in the last 2 years with COPD-related breathing difficulties but he still buys cigarettes, with money we don't have, and makes himself ill. It makes me so mad.
I'm fed up with men at the moment. They don't let me express my feelings and they don't understand how frightened I am of everything. They just say "don't keep worrying" or "I'm worried too but I don't keep on and on about it". I just want to be around females for a while. While men can be easier to get on with socially, they're not so supportive when it comes to the emotional stuff.
I hate the government. I think secretly they want people to die and those who don't die they want us to just be isolated instead until we descend into madness. They like taking our freedom away and dictating us.
Please, I really need support right now. I need a break from my boyfriend. No, we're not going to split up. I just need a break. I need to stay with family. But I can't. How long is this sh***y pandemic going to go on for? ![]()
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Also I still haven't got my COVID test results back, and it's been almost a week since I sent it off. I was hoping I could try and chase them up via the internet rather than phoning, but it seems that the only way to find out your test result is to phone them. I hate phoning people that aren't my family or friends, I don't know why but I just get so socially anxious, especially having to say my name. But my boyfriend wouldn't do it on my behalf, as he'll just say that I'm a big girl and I should be able to do things for myself.
I'm just getting impatient waiting. I don't know why they're taking so long.
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