Ever call the suicide hotline?

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I did, once, many years ago. I was horrifically unhappy, and was sitting looking at a .45 Colt for several hours thinking how easy it would be to just snap the safety off and have things be over with. I had to get a bit drunk to be able to talk to anyone about it, so I had a glass of wine, then called the prevention line. I wasn't staggering drunk, but I don't speak well at the best of times and tend to slur my language a bit when I've had so much as one glass. The words out of the guy's mouth, after I tried to talk to him about it, were "Hey, sis, go sober up. We don't have time to be babysitting drunks on this line." And he hanged up.

Fortunately for me someone I hadn't spoken to in a very long time happened to phone less than five minutes later. If there's anyone, anyone at all, that you know personally that you could call I would call them before I'd call a prevention line.

If I had called one of those I might have saved bits of my soul. Or made me more depressed if they didn't care. But I think any human contact would have saved me. Thank God Celexa has gotten rid of the social anxiety; I think that may have saved me. Telling my mother about it might make me even more depressed because she might get mad at me and tell me to snap out of it or get really worried or sad herself and depress the s**t out of me and INDUCE it.


If you have no one you can talk to, stay on WP and talk and talk and talk, and never shut up. Go into the chat and tell people about this. That's what I do and it makes me feel better. And you can PM me whenever you feel like it.


Alex... who was it? Anyone we know?

I know who it was, I've felt a lot more suicidal myself since I found out she was dead for real. She shouldn't be dead.

(and Alex was NOT her friend)

No. She shouldn't. It didn't have to be this way.

One should be allowed to bring somebody back if they kill themselves and take away what killed them. She should be alive and the worthless s**t I am should be dead.

There are extremely few worthless human lives. And neither you nor herself were worthless. A human life is priceless and immeasurable.

she was worthwhile and there was so much out there for her

I'm not, I'm worthless, there's nothing for me.

I can't imagine what a suicide hotline could say that would help. I guess it's stil worth a try.

Another suicide. Now I'm worried it might be someone who's posts I've read. Even if not this is bad. Who was it?

Never think that you are worthless. List your skills and virtues, ahayes.

Posting on her is forbidden.

You're not worthless! The fact that you posted this, that you want someone to care-- there you go, that's one similarity you and I have, ahayes; we both need attention and human contact.

I don't see why we can't find out who this person was, what did we do to deserve being left in the dark, and who says we have to?
You know, I may just be the most insensitive man on the face of the planet, but if somebody who apparently has so much to live for kills them self, then to me they are unappreciative, and perhaps, undeserving, of life. If somebody who apparently has nothing to live for kills them self, they are simply a coward. I'm not good at sugarcoating things, and perhaps I am too honest, but that is simply the way I feel.
So my point is there is no honorable way to kill yourself, and if you truly have nothing to live for, then your pride and your honor is all you have left, so why would you want to take that away too?
On a related note, I think I am worried for myself here. Feeling sad when somebody dies sucks, but its gotta be better than feeling nothing. Unfortunately, quite opposite to most of you, I seem to be completely heartless and inhuman, I never shed a single tear or feel sorry in the slightest for any of my relatives who have died or anyone else for that matter, and I don't know why. I feel like I am the only one, but maybe its best that way?
Well this should be the one site in the world where people won't judge me for having no compassion for others.

People with AS have compassion, we don't express it

You're a sociopath, not a person with AS.

Yog, you do have compassion, or you wouldn't be here. If you didn't have compassion, you wouldn't be so hurt when people judged you for "having no compassion".

Which rule?

I have strong suspicions on who it is, but if it's forbidden I guess I'll have to keep it to myself. Now I'm worried about several of the female posters on WP until I see them post again.

You just showed compassion