I'm scared for my life but I might die

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My Evil psychiatrist, my case worker, and my psychologist all think the same thing. Evil schizoaffective disorder. Even my family doctor thinks I am schizophrenic. I don't believe them!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! ! They are out to get me by calling me insane. I am not insane.

I just saw my psychiatrist yesterday and he thinks I am having a psychotic episode and he put me on new medication but the pharmacy doesn't have it yet. It is an older anti psychotic called Moban. I wish I don't need to take dangerous antipsychotics.

Schizophrenia is not the same as insanity.

As someone who believes in practically every conspiracy theory out there, even I can tell you that this isn't true. Nobody is out to get you. Why would they do that? They have no reason to.

Have you read 1984? If not, don't. It will make the paranoia worse.

lol don't give her ideas.
I shouldn't joke though.. Seriously, the only way to get rid of the fear is to use logic and I swear you will feel better. Trust me.

Should someone be alerted to your trouble?

someone from some board just called my house, this means they are really tracking me. I'm scared to post scary things ever again....must hide it then so no calls. Even when I said I was suicidal and was going to cut my throat open, they didn't call, what makes this one so much more serious?

FireBird dear,

I hope that you get well and you are still free to PM me if you get these episodes. Like I said I am pretty paranoid of things themselves but please, if you are harming yourself, try and get some help. I know you feel that you can't trust the doctors, I believe everyone has been there at one point or another, but still most of them are trying to help. I'm not here to judge you I'm just concerned for your well-being.

Weather

No one is schizophrenic ... but they may have schizophrenia. You are not insane. There is a reason for how you think and feel, and it's caused by an imbalance of chemicals in your brain. Unfortunately, the only fix is with medication. But it needs to be the right stuff. Unfortunately (again), medicine is largely a matter of trial and error, and you will be a guinea pig for a while. But you desperately need to get medical help.

I got really bad with depression once ... took seven attempts to find some medication that would stabilise me enough that I could address the underlying issues. The first six attempts made me feel worse. It's what we have to go through, short term pain for long term solutions. You need to get on the right medication so you can think straight enough to sort out what you are going to do long term.

Trust what the people on this forum are telling you. We have gone through these situations ourselves, or have friends who have. We are not evil. We are not trying to get you. We are trying to help. Please listen.

Actually with this condition from what I understand medication only keeps it from getting worse, it doesn't stop episodes from happening. Or at least thats what I've heard.

I have a friend with schizophrenia. It's not evil and neither are you, but it can be a problem. Just take the medication, there is no other treatment at present. There can be side effects, but untreated schizophrenia is worse. Nanobots have not yet been invented, no one is stalking you, probably no one gives a s**t, you are just delusional. One critical factor about schizophrenia is that they do not have the ability to recognize their own condition. Medication is the only answer.

The reason I said insane, what do the criminals have that usually plead insanity? Schizophrenia! It is because they have no control over what they are doing because it is the voices in their heads that tell them what to do or they act on their delusions. Most people though with schizophrenia are NOT violent and the media portrays this horribly. They make it look like that all schizophrenics are insane and criminals that can't be trusted. How often do you hear, "a perfectly sane person killed a million people today in New York?" Usually the criminal pleads insanity so they don't go to jail or be executed but go to a mental hospital instead. I don't belong there, I'm perfectly sane. Its just that the gov is putting me through this dangerous test that I don't want to take. I WANT TO LIVE!! !! !! ! I never hurt anyone. Just the economy because on this very site, read "predictions for 2008" and you will see how accurate the predictions were for the economy. I caused this recession. This is why the gov is after me. By the way, I love the gov!! ! Thanks for spying on me, you are so sweet. Why don't you add more people to my spy team? Wait! Thats bad! I don't want them to add more people to my spy team. And today I kept on seeing shadows on the walls, voices talking about me (the cloaked FBI agents that can go through walls), and streaks in the sky telling me of an impending invasion by aliens. How fun! Not! I am turning more and more into a robot. I feel it in my hands now. Schizophrenics are more likely to hurt themselves than other people. I don't believe the doctors. I am not delusional. My pet cute bird is more delusional than me. He believes he is God and when I tell him he's not, he actually cries! How adorable.

I agree with you when you say it is caused by anxiety, I'm no doctor but I've been through what your going through now.

I hope with time you can ge through this I believe in you firebird! you can and will get through this.

I also hope your mom gets better, I know how scary it is when the ones you love are ill. I'll say a prayer for her if you want.

Thank you just-me. That made me feel more "sane." Thank you for saying it isn't psychosis or Evil Schizophrenia but sadly you say you ain't a doctor. I'm normal!! !! ! I love being normal.

I might be going to the hospital for self harm thoughts. The thought insertion at times is just too much for me to handle. Now they are telling me that I might start world war 3 if the bomb goes off, killing billions of people. Not much population will remain. I am scared for my life. I am trying to schedule an emergency appointment with my pdoc and therapist. Stupid holidays! (this means my docs might not be there).

Is there someone to keep an eye on you in the mean time? Just to make shure you dont hurt yourself?

You definitely have some form of psychosis i.e., aliens, nanobots, FBI, etcetera. These things need to be differentiated from the anxiety, which produces rational fears to an irrational level, whereas the psychosis is making irrational fears appear rational to you. Don't confuse the two.

Whether you have Schizoaffective Disorder or not doesn't matter too much, as the psychoses are there, so it's some form of psychotic illness you have (whether Schizophrenia, childhood Schizophrenia which was mistaken for Autism, Depressive Psychosis, etcetera).