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I recognize what you describe Fifasy. It sounds a lot like what I`ve experienced earlier. I have also made the same conclusions regarding alcohol and socializing(alcohol a long time ago, socializing more recently) and it has worked well for me. I feel more stable and stronger now. And it feels good to spend more time on the things I really appreciate personally and to take care of myself instead of weakening myself by doing all the things I am really not made for anyway. Wishing you all the best!

Sorry to read what you've just been through, fifasy, and glad you're back on your feet.

I agree totally with what you said about alcohol - I nearly destroyed myself that way in my teens and twenties. I thought that alcohol was "magic sociability juice" (why not? Everyone else seemed to think so.) Before long, I was in a very bad place - raging meltdowns in the middle of clubs, waking up miles away in unfamiliar places after doing a runner, and yeah, when the depressive effects of the booze kicked in, feeling suicidally rejected. It's kind of hard to learn how to socialise better when you don't even remember what happened the night before!

People talk a lot about how alcohol lowers inhibition, so that you can "let your guard down". I think that yes it does, but when the barriers are down, too much of the outside world can get into my head, until I just can't handle it. I need a bit of a bubble between me and the world to be able to cope with it, and I need enough self-control that I can at least try to tippy-toe around the obstacles that my autism sticks in the way. The autistic traits that make socialising hard for me just seem to come to the surface even more when I'm drunk, even if I don't realise it at the time.

Joining some special interest groups sounds like a good idea. My best friends are the people who are glad to see me when they do, but don't expect more than I can manage - partly from explaining my autistic traits to them, but mostly because that's just the kind of people that they are. I've found the level of socialising that I can cope with, and some people and shared activities which fit that - that's been a big improvement for me compared to switching between party-animal and being a hermit all the time.

I love the idea of contributing to a niche + the healthy foods you ordered. Today I stopped at the health food store and bought items I thought wd help my Anemia, but I Reeeeally didn’t want to try (thought it wd be nasty)

Sprouted chia seed powder, raw cacao nibs, blended with organic frozen berries/cherries and almond milk. With honey.
This had all been recommended to me.

I was prepared to hate it... it tasted awesome! I am right there with you with the drive to be healthy.

I bet good nutrition is more necessary for Autistics than ‘Normal’ ppl.

MsBerg and Trogluddite I appreciate you sharing your experiences, it's nice to not be alone.

I like that you're getting into more wholesome foods blooiejagwa. I haven't tried cacao nibs or chia seeds or powder yet but they're on my to do list.

I’m glad to hear that you are doing better fifasy . I understand what you mean by being unable to stand the rejection, as I have a really hard time dealing with the rejection and isolation as well. I know how horrible that can feel, and I am really sorry you have to deal with this. People can be so exclusive. But one thing I’m confident about is that whatever niche you choose you will excel in and make fantastic contributions for. That’s why we need you here, man ! Good luck with your new nutrition plan. I think what we put into our bodies has a large impact on everything without us even noticing or identifying the root cause. I’m glad you are alright, and I hope you will find peace and contentment very soon!

Stampy

Yes, quinoa can be a little bland by itself but boil it with a little veggie stock and it will be better. I make big batches of oven roasted veg too and then you can keep both in the fridge and just put some together and sprinkle with some feta and nuts or what ever else you like and you have a meal in minutes.

I get "high" on chia seeds. It was not pleasant so I avoid them. I'm a freak or maybe I just had too many at once? Just be careful! I think it has something to do with me having very low blood pressure.

Blooiejagwa, I think you are so right about good nutrition being more important with autism. It is like a finely tuned balance and good nutrition and sleep help keep things more manageable. If you are still struggling with anemia try floradix. It is a vegetable based iron juice. It perks me up tons. Also, be careful not to eat chocolate or tea close to meals as it inhibits the absorption of iron from foods.

Oh and something my grandmother taught me, you can put a tablespoon of raw apple cider vinegar in a glass of water each morning and drink before eating. It really aids digestion. The vinegar is not great for your teeth so even better if you can drink it with a straw.