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Dear Celine

I have been madly in love with you for a long time. You're just amazing, beautiful, funny, one of those few people I can be myself around. Sadly I'm too terrified of rejection to tell you the truth. For now we just remain friends.


Dear Corey

Much as we may have been friends last year you're getting worse and worse. You're controlling our whole group, I'm the only one who ever says no to you. Those other guys do as you say and pretty much worship you. I feel we may eventually no longer be friends


Dear Kalvin and Jarrod

Toughen up, you two obey what Corey says all the time. We aren't particularly close but it really does get to me. Also Jarrod sorry for bullying you all those years ago.


Dear Fabian

You are a close friend. Stuck with me for seven years. Even in cross country last year you stuck with me when you could have run ahead, you stayed and because I didn't want to be last you let me cross the line before you. Always been good to me, thank you for all these years of friendship.


Dear Jed

You were the first person when I joined Aquinas to befriend me. Fabian and I were friends but we were in different classes and growing apart at the time. In year seven you were the only person who was nice to me. I'm glad were still friends and hope it can continue.


Dear Douglas

Sorry for being Anti Christian last year. I have surpassed this and am joining the Catholic faith. Guess I can't be anti Christian now. Thanks for being my friend, although we were never the closest we were close for which I thank you.


Dear Mum
Burn in hell. If I never see you again it shall be too soon.


Dear Grandad
Sorry I fight with Nana but you must understand it isn't entirely my fault. It's also Nana's, she's a miserable person who drags our moods down with hers.


Dear Nana
Much as you love me you are unbearable. I cannot stand living under the same roof as you. You shout and even sometimes throw remotes. Your tantrums are unbearable. And the way you order me to watch the shows on MySky, you shouldn't do that, I might not want to. Oh yeah and STOP telling me to do the things that are part of my daily routine, it gets annoying when I'm doing them and worse when you tell me I haven't done them when I tell you I have AND I HAVE. Please, get some counselling.


I understand this is a lot of letters and apologise if it's too much to read but I really needed to let that out

Dear Young Mainstream Society,

I don't care if this is the 0 Century. If I wish to be stuck in 1965, that's my perogative. Besides, I look like 1965 and I wouldn't have it, any other way.

The Rebel Who Looks Like Mick Avory, And Wouldn't Have It Any Other Way

Dear Young Mainstream Society,

I don't care if this is the 0 Century. If I wish to be stuck in 1965, that's my perogative. Besides, I look like 1965 and I wouldn't have it, any other way.

The Rebel Who Looks Like Mick Avory, And Wouldn't Have It Any Other Way

Truman State University in Kirksville, MO. That's where I go to school (OK, obviously). A few years ago people started calling it the "Harvard of the Midwest" because of the academic strength of its students. I have started using the term in an almost sarcastic fashion (if sarcasm is saying one thing, but meaning the opposite), or at least was doing so as I typed that rant last night.

BTW, the Harvard of Texas would either be Rice University (in Houston) or Southern Methodist University (in Dallas).

What about Trinity in San Antonio? When I was originally looking at colleges (back at the turn of the century), that one always came up. Then I read that they have a lot of gardeners there and don't let you play on the grass.

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Dear Shannon,

You betrayed our friendship, my trust in you, and my respect for you. You knew everything about AS, yet you used it against me anyway. You said you were my friend, yet you proved otherwise. You called me All-Star, your FFL, that you were always my Smiles, that you cared for me like a brother. Then, you said that was a rouse and you were actually my friend on the surface.

As far as I'm concerned Shannon, you are just a conniving backstabbing woman. That's alright though since you have your huge social network, you will still have guys wanting to party with you, and you still have your beloved Jason Mraz. Do you think Mraz gives one bleep about you? Nope, not really.

God, why can't you put actual caring people into the lives of Aspies?

IF THERE WAS ONE THING I WISH I COULD DO FOR YOU SHANNON, IT'S TO ACTUALLY GIVE YOU THE MINDSET OF AN ASPIE FOR ONE DAY.

- Chris

Dear Rick,

They made it through your wake today. Lexie wrote you two poems that your sister read for her... she could not do it herself. Your mom... you know I wanted to slap her, but I did not. I behaved myself, so did Mina. I do not know if you would be proud of us for that or disappointed in us. Either way, we did it for Gina, and I know you would appreciate that. You know she has your dog now? I do not know what to say to you. Part of me is still mad at you for the nonsense you pulled on me all those years ago. When Gina said to me how many people would be there today... so many people who loved you... I wanted to scream that I was going because I love her, not you. But I know I am being petty. I know you grew up. I know you tried. I know you had your issues as much as I had mine. I looked at your picture today and I know I have forgiven you. I hope the rest of the people there today find forgiveness as suddenly as I did. I hope you did as well. Rest peacefully, man, I hope you found what you never found here.

Dear all of my friends here on WP, I'll admit that I've been getting way too far behind in writing my private messages and all and this has made me feel guilty for not keeping a part of a promise in terms of communicating on a frequent level therefore, I hope to get around to writing everyone after the holidays...

Dear Dad

I've always loved the 60s and I always will love the 60s. Telling me to expand my horizons a little, when I was 16, was uncalled for.

Signed in the rebellious spirit of the 60s,

Mick Avory

Dear Mom,

I'm sick and tired of your judgment and your negative attitude about my life. Nothing I ever do will be good enough for you. You will tear me apart and then validate yourself later, telling me I deserved it or it was good for me. You know you're full of S***! You know you've done little to nothing to ever help me through any part of my life.

You jeopardized my well being by exposing me to an older man who you KNEW had less than innocent intentions towards me. You did it because you loved him. I get that. But I don't feel better about your blatant betrayal because you were in a tough spot in your marriage and wanted an emotional connection to another man. I'm sorry your marriage sucks at times, but that does not excuse the fact that you KNEW how he felt about me and you never did anything about it. You never stopped seeing him. Even after he ADMITTED it to you, you still didn't stop seeing him!! ! Things could have progressed much farther than they did. I could have been molested or raped and it would have been YOUR fault.

Then after he admitted it you told me his feelings for me were MY fault! MY fault!?!?! You said I was flirting with him! I was thirteen f****** years old! You were an adult! You should have known better! You shouldn't have put your feelings above mine. You should have done something for me for once instead of yourself!

I never even told you about the time he pressed himself against me while I was sitting on a stool. I never told you because I didn't think you would believe me! And now you'll just say I'm bringing up the past and unrelated things. I can never talk to you about my feelings because so much of them are your fault!! !

I hate you for the things you've done to me. I hate the fact that I grew up depressed, anxious and without friends and you never helped me. You never even asked me what's wrong. You've always been too wrapped up in yourself to see that I was hurting.

I was self injuring as young as seven years old and it continued for YEARS and you NEVER saw the signs??? I never seemed depressed to you? I sat alone in my room through my entire childhood and early teens and you never thought to ask me what's wrong or maybe take me to talk to someone? How did you miss all of this s***?

Then you kick me out at sixteen years old and you made me stay away for a week to teach me a lesson about my attitude. I was so depressed I wanted to die. I cut my hair off in my older friend's apartment and cried on their sofa because you wanted to teach me a lesson!

You took me back only to kick me out for good at eighteen. You forced me out and I had nowhere to go. With no warning you dumped me on my ass and told me to figure things out on my own.

I moved in with my boyfriend who was gracious enough to smuggle me into his dorm and hide me because you were such s*** to me.

I'm sorry I don't always say things right. I'm sorry sometimes I seem mean. I don't mean to and you KNOW that. You KNOW that I have Asperger's and you have NEVER ONE TIME read a book about it, looked it up online, or tried to learn how to make my life easier.

You yelled at me until I melted down then yelled at me more for being immature. You made me feel like s***.

And despite the fact that the only bad thing I've ever done, by your own words!, is have a bad attitude 5% of the time, you accuse me of making the whole family "heartsick". You are constantly disappointed in me and I do NOTHING to you!! !

My brother does whatever the hell he wants and you NEVER kick him out!! ! He's older than me and he's still living at home!! ! You've never kicked him out. Not when he came home drunk, not when you found his bong in the house, not when you found cigarettes in the car. Not when he failed so many classes he couldn't get a loan for college (you even paid his way!! !). Not when he screamed in your face and made you cry. Not EVER!! ! He is a d*** most of the time and everyone knows it yet you keep him around because you claim "He can't function without me". That's b***s***! !!

You are constantly trying to justify the way you've treated me by saying it was good for me. It was NEVER good for me!! ! I have been consistently neglected and emotionally abused by you and I'm sick of it!

Now you won't let my boyfriend, whom I love to tears and have been with for nearly two years, come to Thanksgiving because you're pissed about a fight we had.

I'm sorry I answered the phone when you called and I was crying. I'm sorry I asked for your help. I wish you had never called and I wish you had never gotten involved.

Just because you took me home after a bad argument doesn't make you the decider of my relationships. You have no right to try to convince me to break up with him and no right to refuse to have him for Thanksgiving. If he can't come, I'm not coming and you can explain that to the rest of the family because you're a piece of s***!

I told you that my boyfriend and me are both aspies and that sometimes we are going to have bad fights. We know it's not okay and after that last fight we got books on aspie relationship and have learned so much about each other and our communication! Thing are great now and you say you don't care what some book says, my relationship still sucks. What do you want from me? You're being inappropriate, judgmental, and a b****!

And you have the nerve to say that you still want me around, just not my boyfriend, yet when I didn't dump him you stopped talking to me!! You won't even call to ask how I am because you are pissed that I didn't take your advice. I told you I wasn't mad at you and you still ignore me.

You have a lot of nerve even pretending that you give a s*** about anyone except yourself!

I hope someday you realize how much you've failed me as a parent and how much pain you've caused me.

I wish I could just hate you completely and not care about the things you've said and done, but I do. As much as I don't want to, I still want you to like me. Congratulations.

I really hope all the s*** you've put me through has made you happy!! !

Your daughter


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Sorry so long....sigh....I feel better....

Dear VisnofskygirL,

You're so stupid. Stop being idealistic! Face the reality! Dreams are dreams and will never come true. Can't you just understand?! Well, I guess you really can't cuz you're a dumbass. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. Why am I living inside you? How I wish your mom just killed you. You are nonsense. No one will ever care for you. Your high grades at school are useless. You can easily get good grades but you could hardly gain friends? Yuck,what a shame! That really sucks! How I wish you will kill yourself now. Everything will end up miserably for you. That's the curse that you will carry forever.

KILL YOURSELF. OMG, NO ONE would ever CARE IF YOU'LL DO IT. THERE'S NO REASON FOR YOU TO LIVE. YOUR FAMILY HATES YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE USELESS! YOU'RE A VERY BIG MISTAKE!

You are more than a disabled person. You want to be independent but you keep on depending to them eventhough you know they are already sick of you? Are you numb or something? They want you out of their lives. Can't you feel that? Your aunt is tired of taking care of you and the worse, you destroyed her relationship with her husband. BLACKSHIP. You ABNORMAL! I hate being a part of you. And now, why are you crying while typing this? You can't accept the truth? In fact,everything is your fault. You cannot blame your heart, me or any parts of your body because it's your fault!! !! YOUR FAULT! Stop being optimistic. FACE THE REALITY. Kill yourself and your problems will end.

-your mind

Dear Rayna,

I know I made a few mistakes lately, such as giving my friend your e-mail address. But I did it because you said you would never disappear without a reason, and you ended up doing so. When I tried to e-mail you directly, you never answered, and probably deleted the messages without ever reading them.

All I want is your forgiveness and friendship again, and if you were ever to become single again, would you consider a relationship with me? I don't mind traveling to where you are, and in 3 weeks, I can make plans to move to wherever it is you are, if you will just give me another chance.

Sincerely,

Tim

Dear my life style

I don't love you! You're either super boring or a demeaning pain in my butt! I want a steady job, degree, and divercity to, damit! Do I seriously not feel shameful ENOUGH already?! Hell, everyone describing a looser, I find myself in their criteria somewhere! Can we stop the #$^% life style out please?! IF you actauly allow this to begin with!

(my avie made me 'lol' again.)

Dear ______

I wish I could be clearer about my feelings for you. I wish I could make sense of them. I wish I could be less immature about them. I wish I could accept them, and know what to do with them.
I do love you, even if it's got no title for the time being. I hope you love me too. I'm not really sure if you do. The only thing I'm sure of is I never want you out of my life...Even if it's harder for me.
I wish you could feel the pain I do as a christian and knowing you. There's no way I could word it that wouldn't sound awful. You'd just have to feel it for yourself. I hope you do.

Dear i_w_b,

It's been a tough road, hey chap? I know it's been an existence with too much pain and misery. I wish we were better able to deal with our unique burdens. I know that you are sad almost all of the time. Things once again did not work out and will not work out for you, and even though you should be immune to disappointment now, after all that has happened, you are not. You still hurt and ache, and it is there for everyone to see.

When you were a young child, as innocent as can be I know you did not, or rather could not, comprehend the misery which was waiting for you. If only someone, anyone out there could understand. But it's only me who does. Sometimes crying helps. I know you cry real tears, because you feel real pain. Whatever the reason for all the events of your life, know that I know that you have tried your best. I know it's not much of a consolation but it's something. You never gave in. You pushed yourself to the brink of destruction. To the brink of insanity. I know that when things go wrong we share an appetite to harm one another. Again I know, it's only due the desperation that you are forced to deal with. Under no circumstances do I hate you. I know you deserve only the best, even though you've been given so little.

Your only friend,
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