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HighVamp913
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06 Dec 2020, 10:51 am

I will, Pepe.

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06 Dec 2020, 11:49 am

I am not going to be as active for the next few days but will check in once a day.

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06 Dec 2020, 4:27 pm

HighVamp913 wrote:

I am not going to be as active for the next few days but will check in once a day.

We will be here if you need some emotional support.

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06 Dec 2020, 9:30 pm

I feel empty

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06 Dec 2020, 11:54 pm

HighVamp913 wrote:

I feel empty

That is to be expected.
I imagine you feel an emotional void, in your life, now.
It gets better with time, of course.

You have a lot of other people that you can relate to though, right?

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07 Dec 2020, 1:01 am

Yea, I do.

Am I allowed to return to old habits for the last 24 hours of the wagon.

Still off the caffiene. Had my first panic attack in a while today. Haven't slept at all. Loss of appetite. Been trapped in my head most the time. Isolated myself. Emotionally overwhelmed. Impulses not helping.

I mean can't get any worse.

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07 Dec 2020, 1:12 am

HighVamp913 wrote:

Yeah, stay off the caffeine.
If you are sensitive to it, the way I am, you are really doing yourself a favour.

Distraction helps a lot.
Can you play some games that you like, or don't you have the motivation?

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07 Dec 2020, 1:15 am

HighVamp913 wrote:

Still off the caffiene. Had my first panic attack in a while today. Haven't slept at all. Loss of appetite. Been trapped in my head most the time. Isolated myself. Emotionally overwhelmed. Impulses not helping.

I mean can't get any worse.

I forgot. Do you have a dog?
If so, going for a nice walk would lessen the anxiety, if you can get the motivation to do it.

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07 Dec 2020, 2:05 am

I don't have the motivation nor the energy. I wish I still had a dog so I could walk it. I don't think you can walk a duck. Yes I've been off the caffiene it gives me more energy than I know what to do with.

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07 Dec 2020, 2:25 am

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Yeah, I was afraid of that.
I remember when I was feeling down, not that long ago.

I knew I *should* get out and walk my kids.
I Knew *I would* feel better if I did.
But I just couldn't get out of bed to do it. [sigh]

My suggestion you do it was worth a shot, though. :mrgreen:

BTW, Why are you still awake, so late?
Go to bed, Missy, and get some sleep. :mrgreen:

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07 Dec 2020, 2:35 am

HighVamp913 wrote:

Yes I've been off the caffiene it gives me more energy than I know what to do with.

Having energy is great.
It is the emotional instability that comes with that energy, that isn't.

Caffeine usually (always, for me) amplifies the entire emotional spectrum, so if you feel bad, it can make it feel much worse.
Based on what I have researched, caffeine cause adrenaline to be pumped into your body.

Adrenaline diminishes your rational thinking and allows your emotions to override your reasoning ability.

You may want to engage in a game of chess with a lion with your logic, but you are better off using adrenaline fuelled fear to get your heart pumping your blood to your muscles that are used to run away. :mrgreen:

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07 Dec 2020, 2:37 am

I'm not tired tho. And I did sleep for a bit. Slept from 9pm-11pm. Wide awake now.

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07 Dec 2020, 2:49 am

HighVamp913 wrote:

I'm not tired tho. And I did sleep for a bit. Slept from 9pm-11pm. Wide awake now.

That is a shame.
As I said a number of times, good solid R.E.M. sleep allows people to process their emotional turmoil.

BTW, Are you still getting nightmares?

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07 Dec 2020, 3:04 am

Yea had one last night of family being tortured infront of me.

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07 Dec 2020, 3:51 am

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Yea had one last night of family being tortured infront of me.

I could interpret your dream in two ways.
But I have never studied the field, so it wouldn't mean much.

Do you have any idea what it may mean, assuming there is any meaning at all?

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07 Dec 2020, 4:03 am

HighVamp913 wrote:

Yea had one last night of family being tortured infront of me.

My dreams often give space to feelings I don't dare to acknowledge when awake.

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