What’s on your mind? The Haven version.

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Best Wishes on that schooling issue TP .....

gave up on "friends" and career a longfuck time ago, s**t.

decomposing in my crib

41 too f*****g old s**t

I think the only true way for me to learn appreciation is not having less, not despairing and in need for begging...

... But to have more; more depth, more nuiance, more understanding...

Not the contrast between entitlement and desperation.

Just more nuiance.


For me to understand effort is not to have harder executive function and be economically poorer.
For me to understand effort is realization of uncommonality and complexity of the work. I do not want the illusion of mysticism.


For me to appreciate the smallest of things is not scenario of having this tiny light in the vast darkness; for I'm more accustomed to the darkness.

I don't want an addiction or cope with crap with the simplest of things.

Mine is more like... Looking past more layers and veils.

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Diarrhea every day。EVERY DAY。
This must be a psychological issue.Not every Asperger diarrhea.
But I couldn't find the right medicine.
weak, depressed，want to lie down。

I already managed to enroll my son in a cyber school. Today is his last day at his current school. Thanksgiving break starts tomorrow. Now I’m anxious that he won’t like it and that it won’t work out.

Pros:
- the education component will be way better
- I’ll probably be able to get him back into speech and occupational therapy and his plan will be appropriately followed
- no bullying
- no/less idiotic, regressive BS
- more resources

Cons:
- less socialization although I’ll get him involved in stuff
- he might miss school/seeing his friends everyday, especially as time goes by and unpleasant memories fade

Of course, I could easily switch him back, but I fear that the adjustment would be difficult.

How does he feel about it being his last day

He’s been a bit up and down today even though this is something he’s wanted for a while, but he’s feeling really good about it right now.

That's good

I suppose it's something new to get used to for you both and it's not always easy either

How do I get the many things done that need to be done .

I'm feeling so tired and weak. I'm hoping as the day progresses I will feel a bit better.

Hope your day improves bee

Hope you find a solution Jakki

^Thank you.

twenty years after flunking out of structural engineering, still had a dream about structural engineering last night. s**t.

traumatic.

you NEVER get over that s**t, s**t!

much analysis...little accomplished ....less results..except a sore back .....for my time .

Friends who don't understand that I can't always be available. Im struggling with feeling comfortable and I just don't think it's a great idea to socialize. I could mask that I'm feeling this way but it makes me feel upset later.

Coffee. I've drank a bit more than I should. For some reason it sometimes puts me into what I call paralyzing dread. It doesn't always give me productive energy.

I'm struggling to relate to people lately. I feel like I stick out. Thinking about my medication and if it's even doing anything. I can't tell. Sometimes I really don't want it tbh.