scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+1, would be higher but I have a headache.

-8

i just found out that my ex in-laws think i have been an abusive spouse, based on how i recently tried to make the separation look like mostly my fault so they wouldn't think less of their son. i told them i wasn't always nice to him, and that i am hard to deal with, and that i had some difficult behaviour. nothing extreme.

we told them about the marital separation a few months ago and they said they wanted to maintain a relationship with me, but that changed today since they found out i have a boyfriend. there was no overlap with my marriage, but it was an open marriage anyways and my former husband had a girlfriend of his own... which he doesn't want to to tell them even though they would understand better that i didn't just suddenly abandon him and leap into bed with someone. they are tossing it out the window and now they think i have suddenly turned into a horrible person.

i've known them for 21 years. i stood by them for everything. they always told me how the appreciated my loyalty to them. i guess that isn't true anymore. they were like parents to me.

4. I no longer feel like getting high. Talking to a friend about my desire to get high helped me get my mind on other things. I'm having a cup of Happy Tea, so that I won't be going to bed feeling jaded.

-5 I feel like I should feel depressed but I just feel numb and its 2 in the morning but I feel like if I try and go to sleep now i'll just end up staring at the ceiling for a few hours before I am even close to sleep.

-7 Why does the light at the end of the tunnel always have to be a train?

Doomed.....if only I did not have to live at my moms house, I'm 22 I should not have to deal with the freaking stress of my mom and her boyfriend screaming at each other all the freaking time. And I'm the one who's in the wrong for telling them to be quiet so I can sleep? I don't even want to describe what this does to my mental state but it's not good.

-4

You want to know the worst trait I observed in aspies is?! When you're upset, the aspie wants you give them the pickiest details, if they don't understand something, they ask another question, so you find yourself kissing their subcontious butt, long before you get to feel heard. "oh, that means what exactly?" followed by. "ohhhhh ok." like you were talking about an assault incident with a cop or something. Get mad, and you're the meanie see. Poor aspie=screw how you feel is how I'm feeling at the moment basicly. I in a very bad mood, and the little topping really sent me over it.

Shortly before this, I was upset then, and someone wanted some roleplay. They admited to me that they wanted to roleplay no matter my emotional and mental state. OMG! I brushed that disturbance aside, and roleplayed. Well, when they were satisfied, they flat left. I didn't get my turn to be satisfied! So if they can't stand my little candle flame. Boo hoo.

-5

Stupid neighbor, kicking his walls in and making noise RIGHT on que for my super bad mood.

? depressed/no energy/no hope
please God stop punishing me. God/universe/nature/whatever