scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-2, every day it feels less and less worth it and that really sucks.

-10
Wish I wasn't me anymore.

-10, I guess I'll smoke a cigarette to satisfy my nicotine craving and take a shower though I don't see what the hell for.

+3 laughing at my dad's conversation with insane girl friend.
you should take a shower because, no one wants to be around someone that is smelly.

That's alright I don't really have anyone to be around today anyways....I might go to a head shop and get some Kratom though, that'll make me feel better.

+5

I talked to my boyfriend last night. He won't see me for valentines day but I still talked to him. I think he is missing me but when he is busy his own aspie issues mean he needs lots of space and alone time. It is also pay day so I can now buy food if I want. I haven't eaten this week but now I have money I am not sure I will, I like losing weight too much. It is 6.30 in the morning and I have my 4.5yr old Autistic son cuddled up in bed next to me playing minecraft. He has started getting that yucky boy sweat smell but It wont ever stop me snuggling him. He just told me he loves me. My hormones are working themselves out and I am quite content.

-2

Something is wrong, but I can't pin-point what it is.

-9

Not felt so detached from this wold for a long time, I scarcely know what I'm typing anymore.

*hugs TPP*

I know how that can feel.

+1, myself

+3.5.

-1

I wish... WISH.. I could stop feeding them trolls, but it's so dammed hard to resist telling them the trueth about how I feel about them. I've also barely had time to think about anything of use lately, as the neighbores simply will not pipe down to a respectful level for everyone here! 148 is banging again, and that disrupts enough as it is. The other guy keeps going to his car, and playing his boom box loud enough to set off the car alarms near him over and over. I always feel irrationaly angry off and paranoid. To top that off, T R O L L in question always shows up to piss in my face. "Your fault that you're broke! Your fault that you're a disgrace, b***h! Hee heee." NO WAIT! I breath. Once again I get "You have no right to exist." all up in everyone's face. GOD! I want to beat that troll up, I tell you!

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I'm pretty sure I've been through all -10 to 10 today,
Talk about one hell of a day!

Overall -10, lately feeling like there's really nowhere to turn for any support.......posting here can help, but yeah I just don't know how to even approach this IRL. I mean I don't want to piss anyone off by telling them I am feeling more and more like suicide is starting to look like an option and I am not too good with the being close to people thing so I don't really know how to ask for any sort of support or what it would even consist of without it being uncomfortable.

+3

that stuff actually does something? my friend told about something called "kaptain krazy" I'm slightly interested in it