scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+3. Life is good

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fighting to keep it there.

I went through a fifth of whisky last night, I'm surprised I'm not more hung over than what I am.
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+4

+2. Same as yesterday but at least it's not gone down.

+1. Not sure what to expect on my paper tomorrow morning, had to write an exam 2 times this summer during the first day of period including today, and almost got myself into trouble with today's exam by writing pretty much utter nonsense. Oh well at least my brain still functioned on 1 hour of sleep last night so I caught myself and cancelled out the bad answer and answered another question instead but now I'm exhausted and can't get my crap together again. At least feeling a bit better now after talking to a friend, but still sucks that I can't trust my brain and it keeps betraying me like this. I wish my brain could just learn things quickly like some people's brain seems to do. I study for hours sometimes with not much getting in.

-10. I feel like I've taken 3 steps forward, and then an instant 20 steps back. Today is just gonna be a horror day, I guess. It's a pity no one will ever understand.

I'm not sure whether to feel good or not. It could really go either way after this hangover. Nothing important today, so maybe if I just avoid being bored, this day will be good.

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Not much to do, I might find a new video game...not sure what to play though.

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Today has been pretty crappy and I feel really ill, but I had a nice laze about in the sun earlier on.

-4.

I have a comfortable yet dissatisfying life. The employment agency noticed I had a (mild) disability so they stuck me in this place where I get $25 a week and the other $400 comes from a pension. Maybe I should have studied harder when I was younger (I'm always regretting the past). Lately I've been feeling like I want to give up the easy life and actually earn my own money but it will be hard entering the (real) workforce at age 25.

Also I can't get a second date. Always rejected after the first date. If I'd dated as a teen like most other people instead of starting earlier this year than I would have a level of experience appropriate for my age.

Also I moved out of home for the first time this February (because I'm immature) but I recently got kicked out of subletting a room after an argument. I had to move all my stuff back and it's not all setup yet and I wondered why I have so many meaningless possessions in the first place. It's all due to past obsessions and resultant ebay binging. Now I have to find a place to put it all.

I just want to be competent at life. About the only mature thing I can think of in my life is that I at least own a car, unlike most of my friends who don't even have driving licenses for some reason.

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0; I am alright, but these bloody noses have to stop sometime.

-5

2. I wish I had someone to talk to about all this work stuff. I kinda get the impression people think I'm incapable of analysing the situation due to lack of social smarts or whatever. I wish to regale them with all I know, and I want them to tell me all of what they know. I'm a stakeholder in this, I deserve to know.

It could be better, I think I am kind of stressed or something.