^VMSmith, keep fighting the good fight.
Meanwhile, I feel quite pleased today, because I crossed the final barrier I had set myself: I have drunk an alcoholic drink. Not even a very strong one, it was really fruit juice with a tinge of wine, but still, for me this is highly symbolic. Why? Because, since my father is alcoholic, and I was always afraid that I'd be inclined to the same addiction, I vowed to never sip a drop of alcohol. And here I went, and I didn't even protest after it was offered to me. Time will tell if my attitude toward all other alcoholic drinks has now changed.
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clarity of thought before rashness of action