scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-10

I feel like crap right now. My sinuses are bad, and my throat is incredibly sore. I am trying everything I could to make myself better, but not much is working. I just don't feel that I will feel better in time for the weekend. We were supposed to go to the science center, and maybe visit relatives on the 4th of July. Unfortunately, that may not happen, and I am very frustrated with the progress of my physical health.

-9

I feel absolutely exhausted today, and it doesn't help that I tried watching a few episodes of Orange is the New Black last night (I got the Season 1 DVDs out from the library), and that caused me to have a stressful night of sleep. God, I wish I could just watch whatever the hell I want without having to worry about the repercussions, like many NTs do. Why must sleeping be such a f*****g hassle for me?

-2

Offended a shedload of people yesterday. My gay friend told me I'm a great guy and said I'm really not homophobic and asked me "Do you treat me just your straight guy friends?"

And I said "No, because it's a different situation." and he got flustered and walked away

Then later I said something a little cocky to my crush and she said "See! You are really not nice sometimes you know! This is what I'm talking about!"

And all the sudden I almost cried because even though I'm thousands of kilometers and years away it sounded exactly like the words my teachers, family and friends would say during an after school intervention, or the discussions that basically forced me to move out. Hurt a LOT.

But to her I just looked like a little baby, and I tried explaining why it hurt to her and she just didn't care, cause I had been the "dick" when I was trying to be like normal people and made a stupid joke in an attempt to be closer.

But I'm doing OK because this whole Asperger's thing really seems like me and I'm optimistic about getting help.. when before I felt hopeless.

0 neither bad nor good. Some people support me, some hate me. I do not really care if others are highly emotional. Everyday is really: "Meh. Could be better. Could be worse."

5

+4. The world can suck it today...

6 Today was another long slog at work, with not enough people.

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-5

0 I am staving off some low moods lately, trying not to think about the unknowns, distracting myself, doing the sensible things etc

-3 Sometimes I just feel hopeless and overwhelmed with the vacuum between the perceptions and reality of ASD. The negativity just weighs on me.

-8 I a monster
need to die.

-2
Trying to figure out more ways to keep busy and entertain myself. Also have to study for driving permit test.

a 10 minus

+4

I am starting to accept the fact that my anxiety is starting to get out of hand. I am hoping that increasing my Anafranil dosage by 25mg will help.