scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+6

Tried to make someone happy, and seems to succeed so far. Meanwhile, the emptiness is still there.

+1

+6

+2

Chest pains, muscle spasm, shortness of breath... Anxiety. Not so loving family fun ahead.

So this is Christmas, Yay!

-2

No number, that is the point. I've become completely numb to feelings or worry of abandonment so I can't seem to gather any bother to bleat about it.

-1 Hoping to reach a level of serenity as it pertains to career choice(s) in the long term setting

three fiddy.

life is good. static, but good.

8 - i'm on vacation.

-1 The anxiety is still there quite intensely, but it hasn't worsened.

-4

Energy 20% Still lack of sleep like every mondays
Mood 23% Quite sad and angered, things went not smoothly as expected, have to deal with negative emotions and emptyness. Some regrets added on
Forecast : It'll still be cloudy tomorrow, not expecting any improvements.

-10

About a decade ago, my mom's high school friend passed away from diabetes. The last Christmas present he got me was a Felix the Cat DVD.

This year will be even more depressing than that Christmas. My uncle fell backwards down the stairs at his home, and broke his neck and vertebrae. While he did have an operation, he has become so swollen to the point that he can't move most of his body parts, and I fear that he will become a cripple for the rest of his life, although it's too soon to tell. His family (my aunt and two younger cousins - 10 and 9) are taking this really hard, and I feel so bad for them. Before going to bed, I cried for ten minutes straight, because I don't know how else to cope. My grief has gotten so bad, I may consider skipping Christmas Eve brunch with my maternal family and my aunt's annual Christmas party this year, because of how depressing it may be with my uncle in the ICU.

3

I'm newly aware that I have aspergers. Having a difficult time in my relationship with my adult daughters and having to face some things I did wrong that one daughter is deciding to hold a deep grudge against me and in realize much of my behavior has been motivated by a desperation to feel loved by my husband who never supports or encourages me when I melt down, but rather becomes the sort of ring leader of the gang that is my family as they attack me verbally /emotionally. I feel alone, unloved, like a failure and a loset and very sad. Don't k ow where to turn for proper diagnoses or help or encouragement.

3

I'm newly aware that I have aspergers. Having a difficult time in my relationship with my adult daughters and having to face some things I did wrong that one daughter is deciding to hold a deep grudge against me and in realize much of my behavior has been motivated by a desperation to feel loved by my husband who never supports or encourages me when I melt down, but rather becomes the sort of ring leader of the gang that is my family as they attack me verbally /emotionally. I feel alone, unloved, like a failure and a loser and very sad. Don't know where to turn for proper diagnoses or help or encouragement.

0 neutral at this time being

-2
Normal xmas blues