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i think i actually relate but i just want to check: when were you idalyzed?

I have lived in Iowa City for 6 years and I f*****g hate it there is absolutely nothing to do in this pretentious god for saken city. It is the epi-center of mediocrity when it comes to everything; Music, culture EVERYTHING. Every event is a alcohol fueled music show where the music sucks and everyone is drunk. The festivals are just stupid corporate sponsored family gatherings The only thing that has changed is a new theater but that hasn't really improved things. THERE ARE NO GOOD MUSEUMS, MUSIC SHOWS or ANYTHING to do. THE whole town is getting more expensive without any of the perks because f*****g CHINESE AND CHICAGO STUDENTS have MORE MONEY THAN BRAIN CELLS. The whole city is just one big real estate plot and nothing else. The people are either really snoody, simpleton farmers or too crazy to hang around.

The reason IOWA in general is behind is because millionaire farmers either buy more expensive farming equipment,though I don't criticize them for that, or they hoard their excess cash send it east to Florida or the CHICAGO BOARD OF TRADE. NO ONE is investing money to build good museums or anything like the Carnegie's or Rockefeller did. IOWA is and always will be just FARMLAND and nothing else.

Don't get me wrong I love Iowa weather but god if only the culture and people could evolve a little bit. The only thing Iowa is stays current with are Cellphones, TVs, Star Bucks, houses, retail stores and restaurants. I mean Jesus Christ you can't build those things any faster in this State. Don't bother with museums, music halls and other stuff that would actually elevate this state to something more than farmland and four letters that get confused with Ohio and Idaho.

It still happens, I think, but mostly when I was around 20. I spent more time with other people back then.

In a bad spot here. Someone I care about is in a really bad position, and I'm worried about her.
One of my favorite online communities is falling to pieces, too.

A very bad person has been allowed to run amok there and has f****d up a lot of things that I really care about, and has shown the intent to harm others by means of extensive blackmail and destroying trust between friends.

I will kill him if I ever meet him.

severely depressed.feel like absolute sht,no one in life cares, they assume am just down because am not able to communicate it across to them, and am not able to show emotions either,it comes out as severe challenging behavior;they blame the autism and ID for everything.
am the only one here at the moment as its a brand new build,waiting for others to move in,weve got a new manager who is changing everything around in this care home without a thought to the impact on self, introducing new rules without transition periods and making a lot of awful assumptions, honestly hate the woman and she knows it-she said today she doesnt care if am seeing here as the wicked witch of the west as she is here to do a job.this isnt a job,its a life-mine. btch.

can understand how exactly feel.
felt exactly the same way when was groomed,bullied and threatened by a regular user here [now banned as a result],it went on for so long ended up sectioned in a intelectual disability hospital for four months.

pyschopaths/people with pyschopathic behaviors shoud not be allowed near public communication platforms like the internet,its a pity theres no way of blocking them all from accessing the net,let them mess themselves up instead of other people.

No one warned me that I would have to figure out lots of important $41+ that no one would warn me about!

I'm so sorry that you feel this way and hope that you are still around. Just know that you aren't alone in this because, more so than I would like to admit, I feel the way as well.

The more I understand, the less I like it.

Still, there's fun to be had.

(Double post)

Last edited by TheTrueMayhem on 08 Aug 2014, 5:11 pm, edited 1 time in total.

(The point is moot. I feel a little better now.)

Computers suck. They break down, they malfunction, they complain that there's no storage space when the disk has plenty of space, etc. I hate computers and yet I'm using one right now. How ironic.

I hate doctors! I went to a ENT specialist today because I have had tinnitus since I was a child. I heard that there are now new treatments for it. So, I scheduled an appointment and was told that there is no treatment for it and there most likely will never be one. They still do not know the cause of it so there for are not able to provide any treatment for it. I left very puzzled. Why are they stating on there web site that they have a treatment to manage tinnitus and then the doctor says they do not. I think they will do and say just about anything to take peoples money!

@Deb, do you have that "S" in your avatar ?
If so that's AWESOME! I have an 09 VDB without the S of course.
I collect Jefferson nickels and nickel errors OMM, RPMs, off center.

Sorry for randomness, I'm into coins

I like to collect pennies. I do have some other coins in my collection but the pennies are my favorite, I collect double strikes, off centered, wrong planchet, broadstrikes, anything unusual about a coin, Below are the pennies I search for the most: I have most of them. A couple years ago I had to sell my 1909-S VDB. I hope to buy another one before they get more expensive.

?1909-S VDB (small "S" below the date and "V.D.B." on the back at the bottom between the stems of the wheat ears)
?1909-S
?1914-D
?1922 No "D" (there is no mint mark below the date)
?1931-S
?1943 Bronze/copper (cents in 1943 were made out of zinc plated steel, not copper)
?1943-D Bronze/copper (cents in 1943 were made out of zinc plated steel, not copper)
?1943-S Bronze/copper (cents in 1943 were made out of zinc plated steel, not copper)
?1944 Steel (cents in 1944 were again made out of copper/bronze, some old steel blanks got minted in 1944 by mistake)
?1955/55 (doubled die variety)

I was worried that I would sound like I'm dumping, but I don't care at this point. My life has SUCKED up to this point. Firstly, my parents divorced while I was still
young, so I was basically yanked around for a good amount of my life going from house to house and never having a sense of solidarity. They were two different environments: My mom and her abrasive way of speaking made it hard to distinguish whether she was scolding or instructing me as well as her quick temper, her insistence that "you're not listening", and my stepdad and his mostly placid exterior that was occasionally broken when he was especially irked with someone or something, sometimes leading to loud fights between mom and stepdad because mom's so damn confrontational and defensive. Dad's house wasn't much better. Dad also had a bad temper which he'd often show by talking sternly towards me and often yelling. He (and barely anyone in my family for that matter) showed very little interest in my hobbies or interests, often casually dismissing me when I was in the middle of talking about it (back then I didn't understand how to talk to people, and even TODAY he still does it even when I'm not going in depth like I used to!). My stepmom was very self-righteous and white-bread as well kind of vindictive on some occasions. Her sister and family are the same way, and I feel sorry for all my cousins and the miserable, unhappy people called their parents who raised them. I tended to live in fear of Dad or Mom losing their temper at me when I accidentally screwed up either by having an outburst at school or messing up at home, because I knew someone was gonna get yelled at, and that was usually me. Dad and Stepmom would criticize me for my interests, saying that the reason why I was so NEGATIVE and sad and self-pitying and thought everyone hated me was because I was PROJECTING onto everyone. (Like when I read the Hunger Games and Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep because I was INTERESTED. And they accused me of wanted to read "Dark, post-apocalyptic stuff" because I was NEGATIVE. WTF?!) OH, YOU'RE BEING SO NEGATIVE CONNOR! Mom would also do that, telling me to LET GO of things that happened years ago when I bring it up even I still have moments where I remember incidents that really hurt to watch. My sister, while not overtly mean, has a tendency to act like she owns everything and has tendency to be a control freak about it. When she's not doing that, she, like the rest of my family, takes no note of my hobbies or any attempts at sharing them and instead likes to dismiss things that I like as "stupid". Seriously, she thought Guardians of the Galaxy was stupid because it was science fiction, but when she saw a trailer, she was all "oh, this looks interesting!" Whaaa?! I also had to fight with my Dad a bit to NOT GO TO CHURCH WHEN I WANTED TO. Seriously. Why is it so hard? And what's worse is that my sis acts all apprehensive about how I don't really go to church anymore! What, is not really believing in God all that bad? Is having faith forced down your throat all your life all that awesome? Honestly, I'd say that I'm angry with God. Angry that I've had to live this sh***y life where I've been so alone throughout my school days (except for my best friend Sam, love him to death), have a family that doesn't understand me, have them catastrophize my condition (it's really just mild Aspergers. In fact, I'm quite high-functioning), and then watch as their youngest grows up to be an emotional WRECK. I hated grade school, hated middle school, hated high school, and afraid I'm gonna hate college. I'm just so ANGRY!! ! And you know what? I want to find someone who loves me! I want to STOP feeling like the world owes ME something! I don't want to live my life and die a bitter, lonely old man! But no matter what, I still remember the pain! THE PAIN NEVER STOPS!! ! ALL I WANT IS TO STOP FEELING THE PAIN OF MY sh***y CHILDHOOD AND LIVE A HAPPY LIFE WHERE I HAVE THE CONFIDENCE TO DO WHAT I WANT!! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK, GOD?! ! HUH??! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?! !!

i swear to god if you cut ANYTHING i am going to smack you across the head and give you a lousy review.