scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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5. I feel quite normal.

could you edit the name-calling out of the last post? i think it's against forum rules. you don't have to like everyone, but can you convey that without personal attacks?

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-11

I used the wrong credit card to buy my husband a Valentine's Day gift on Amazon, and now I can't change my credit card information. You see, my husband got me a new credit card last month, and I meant to use that instead of the one I used for the past year. Now I am scared that I may lose more money because of it.

When I was employed, I was at least happy, because I was bringing home money that I earned. I am now on disability, and have regretted leaving a job I didn't like working in, and now no one will hire me. I am getting a volunteer opportunity in the botanical garden's library, but I doubt it will lead to a career opportunity, because I don't have a job and no one will be interested in hiring someone with a disability anyway. f**k my life!

Perfection isn't purity and purity isn't perfection.

2: Struggles. Priorities and pressures in check. Healing.

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I feel that even though I don't have such impulses having read through stuff on suicidality is not healthy unless you take some precautions before engaging with the content. I feel...slower to react today but not quite lethargic. More like that slow to react, spend indeterminate amount of time staring blankly feeling which I went beyond sometime in my late teens.

I hate how I have no self-trust while recovering from an addiction to do something/ be more active like doing a hobby like drawing. I hate how I have no self-confidence while recovering from an addiction to do something/ be more active like doing a hobby like drawing.

My mind is more likely to contemplate, self-debate and ultimately to an extent 'beat itself up' while drained for having pondered about what self-trust/confidence is.

D--- how most voices saying 'Do stuff' induce the scowly and abusive faces and auditory faces which so make up a sum of the unpleasant experiences I have had.

I am not a demon. I am not a puppt. I am not a monster.

-8, I can't sleep and I want to.

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-30


i don't believe a word anyone says to me anymore that suggests life is worth living.

I don't get it, Kip. I honestly don't.

I wish I had your looks. I wish I had your brains. I wish I was 21 again.

none of those matter at all if you can't communicate to save your life.

What makes it difficult to communicate?

4. Another "friend" has become distant but at this time i just don't care. She probably doesn't deserve my friendship.

-10

I got exploited for money.