scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-5

-2, my thoughts have made me nauseous and I want them to disappear.

3+

The thing I received certification for (office admin--executive), I can hypothetically re-learn almost entirely by following 'lynda' courses..-_- =_= gathering the motivation to do that when you have priorities like moving out, finding a job and actually doing things which are worth your time/you like (like an *art* course) and not feel emotionally steamed/ stunted for being in the same 'distracting stagnancy' which 'co-molded' me while still a student in the 'conventional' sense? .. -~-

+8 ... celebrated our tenth anniversary early.

5

After an ugly year, I think I am finally really getting back to normal. At least a bit. It's too soon to know that, but the black cloud is mostly gone, for now.

I think it helps I finally have a good solid path to follow to my future.

~2.5

Please,please,please >_< ..I don't want to be like my parents in being hooked to watching conspiracy, occult and esoteric like spirituality videos.

Bad memory: I remember at a call centre high profile business ppl asking me to adjust or look into their email or such. Survey results after words '...learn some English..' . I hated jacka-- who did that--and if [i]their grasp on English or language were more authentic un-compassionate .b.s. like that would be less of a thing..=_=[/i]

+5 - just read this: https://www.forbes.com/sites/jackkelly/ ... c174786ef0 - "how to elevate yourself when your job and life are dragging you down"

1. I just want to be somewhere where people like me and i'm not treated like i'm dumb.

-5

2:

The possible loss of house keys -~- and my dad is still sober a.f.a.i.k.

-4

I don't know. I am just not feeling great. Today I spent my entire shift nauseated because it was too hot, and the AC isn't functioning. Then got home to feeling completely invalid. I'm really tired of people questioning how I feel and the things I want to do.

No one takes me at my word for anything. It's like they think me completely incompetent. I'm tired of it. And I am always disregarded when I am not feeling great emotionally. No one seems to believe that it's possible for me to be exhausted everyday after work. But it takes all my energy to keep myself level all day. By the time I get home I just dont want to have to think about anything. My feelings are always being invalidated by people. Part of it is because I am secretive, so when I am "suddenly" not feeling great, there's no understanding. But I've always kept a lot of the stress and what I've experienced to myself. So I guess it's just how it is.

-8
I’ve gone mute and picked up jerky, brownies and cupcakes.

6

0 Just feeling "not good enough."