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What is that something you want to be?

I've never done this, but I, especially since the beginning of my twenties, have started to think of objects having feelings, and need to be loved and taken care of. I think it has to do with my utter emptiness, inside.

I'm sorry you're doing so badly.... I wish there was something I could say. I don't know why humans are so nasty, though. I personally think I should leave this life to become a better, more beautiful being, on some other planet; more beautiful, both physically and mentally. I'm starting to think that humans are incapable of true love, anyway. I'm probably wrong, but I'm starting to accept that possibility. Then again, I'm looking for a way out of continuing to live this life, every moment. The latest reason was due to paint having come off of the buttons of a jacket I like.

Again, I'm sorry that you're doing so badly. :/ I wish there was something I could do to make everything better.

Sometimes you just have to turn around and go in the opposite direction and back away from the the things that are upsetting you.

If you keep pursuing a thing and you keep running into a brick wall, even though it might feel like failure, even if you really don't want to do it, sometimes you have to just get away from all the things that are driving you crazy so that you can see them from an entirely different perspective.

It's not easy. Sometimes you have to look at the pain you are feeling and remind yourself that it is only pain. You can survive it if you can back away or plow through it (whichever mode best suits the circumstances). Neither choice is a lot of fun, but walking away from a brick wall or running through a wall of fire (depending upon the specifics of what you are dealing with) can be the fastest way through the problem.

Sorry if this is a bit too metaphorical... I've been listening to "Magic and Loss" by Lou Reed too much.

Purchase, read a book. play an online game, solitaire, chat online, play an instrument, anything that has nothing to do with your situation. You are too focused on your situation to get a clear picture of it. Meditation can help. Just focus on something that does make you happy and empty your mind of everything but that. Try to change your mood. Listening to music helps me.
Rationally, you know this feeling will pass. Do you have a therapist you can call? If not there are national hotlines if you want to talk about it.
Be patient, for every dispair in life, there is a time of bliss equally profound. Just wait it out as best you can, it will come and you will be glad you did.
As an aspie love of mine once said to me "Keep on keeping on"

Bipolar fit

Last edited by purchase on 05 Sep 2011, 5:44 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Sometimes you are the only person who knows yourself well enough to give good advice. If someone you knew were going through what you are going through, what would you tell that person?

Don't be sad that I understand. I'm not, anyway. I'm depressed over the consequences of my quest to find perfection, instead. At the same time, I don't think I have a choice in the matter... I have to do it this way.

Is it possible, by any chance, that you'd be able to go to bed, at least? I'm going soon, myself. Not even tired, but going to, anyway. And you're not being whiney.

Yes it helps to have people who understand...though I certainly do not wish anyone else to feel how I feel. I mean I feel very helpless at times but at the same time I have to give my credit for not freaking out and screaming like a maniac and disturbing the public...even though sometimes it is very tempting. But yeah since that last post of mine where I was going on about not being meant for this world I felt horrible when I posted that like just severely depressed. And then then when it kind of died down and I was feeling slightly better........I woke up the next morning to feeling very weird. And it has not gone away...I kind of wonder if it is possible to have a mental breakdown in your sleep and then wake up to the aftermath. Not sure how else to explain how I feel.

I don't wanna go on about my crap...but point is yes there are some in this world who can understand these overwhelming feelings and such...it is unfortunate anyone has to experiance these kinds of things but then again its a little less painful when you are not the only one.

The only method I use to cope depression -- watch a sad movie not so sad that it depresses me further but sad. I cry all of it out and go to sleep. when I wake up I feel a lot better. I can't cry otherwise without a movie

I know exactly how you feel. I care for you and this will pass.

several things I have learned in some programs I attend that may help

1 feelings are not facts.

2 stay in the moment. Yesterday is gone tomorrow is not here yet
2A find something to appreciate in the moment - for me something outside of my self - in items of stress I carry a smooth pebble

3 you can't change anybody else - so don't spend energy worrying about them.

4 this too shall pass - and it will

5 finally, and this one is not easy - if you can let go of the drama, rise above it, everything will calm down some.

What about when the moment really sucks? sometimes people experiance that.

thanks for help. read it and am feeling worn out but appreciate it.

feel any better today purchase?

Hi One StepBeyond! Thanks for asking! Yeah some. Have to see therapist but another post on hypomania reminded me I have to keep asking about a bipolar 2 diagnosis cause that perfectly describes my state last night. Mixed hypomanic/depressed. And why I am still not feeling grounded but not depressed. Persistently recurring issue. Thank you for your help, it means a lot.