No One On This Site Cares About Me T_T

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I find your contributions very unique, b9. Your jet engine clip in one of the music/listening threads made me laugh.

I'm trying not to sound hateful/horrible here because I mean it kindly.

What do you expect of a site made just for the most annoying people on earth?

No one cares about me, either.

I tend to post if I can suggest advice to a problem, or know a little about the topic.
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Sometimes I read a post but get stuck on a reply because I am thinking in shapes, not words.
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Often its just that I am a weird old granny and my thoughts aren't relevant to you modern lot :)

being human is not a recipe for automatic concord with other humans. i imagine that in a field of grazing cows, that not every "moo" is automatically endorsed by every other cow. some cows may disagree. other "moos" may very well translate to "citations please?".

in all seriousness, i often think that this site is populated by people who wish to display themselves like a peacock fanning their tail feathers to attract adoration. many people only reply to posts that are directly complimentary to their own posts because they are vainglorious, and they do not participate in anything that is not about them. there are a number of very popular members who do that.

many people on this site feel that they are undiscovered gems, and they display their own beings (usually by using another persons post to showcase their own imagined eminence) , and they wish for adulation. they do not really care to be selfless and surrender their own identities (edit 1: replaced the word "by" with "to") to what they may consider to be obsequiousness.

i do not identify with the majority of people on this site, and i do not feel they are really autistic, but they gatecrash conversations because they think they are superior and they think the general focus will shift to them (edit 2: removal of full stop) during the progression of the thread.

i dislike vanity, and vanity is usually cloaked in an otherwise "innocent" context.

for example, there are many posts i have read that say things like: i am sick of girls throwing themselves at me because i am oblivious to their intentions, and i do not know why i am almost raped every time i go out the door.

they cloak the message "i am hot and i want you all to come to that conclusion given what i have said, but i do not want to be considered a show off so i will interlace the message that i am hot in an indirect fashion which makes me look oblivious to it, and therefore even more hot"

i think young people (15-25) are more interested in themselves than anyone else.

they will enter a thread in a disguise of altruism and concern, but the wording of their posts is designed to glorify themselves as a by product of the advice they give.

there is much more to say but i can not be bothered to think about it and i realize that pearls rolled before swine are inevitably going to be ignored in favor of the muck they are laying on..




most people that post in the "display your art" thread are showcasing their own efforts, and their main desire is to be appraised as gifted, but they will sometimes "lower" themselves to say "wow great stuff" about other posts to look humble when in reality they are just reminding everyone else that they exist and they act as if they are humble enough to care outside the domain of their own productions, when in reality they are just hoping that other readers will search their post history to see their own artistic contributions.

the world is a murky place of insincerity and false flattery in order to pull the "camera" toward their own existence.

i posted much stuff in the art thread which i thought would elicit a response, but almost everything i posted was ignored. i do allow that i think of mathematical functions that create my pictures that i write programs to execute and render, and i have been told that i was cheating because i did not draw my pictures with my hand.

i felt that i was being short changed because i devised the functions that created the pictures in my own head. no one could manually draw the pictures i posted, but that was ignored.

i gave up posting my stuff to that thread.

i have not visited that thread for about a year or more, so i have not seen your contributions to it.

similarly, the music thread ignored my contributions due to whatever reasons. most people in that thread are self promoting, and unlikely to even listen to other members contributions, because they care only about appraisals of their own contributions. i have not been there in a long time.
mostly, i found the contributions to the music thread to be garbage because it is all experimental (failed experiments in my mind). maybe they think the same about my contributions, but at least my contributions were fully arranged.

it is sad that you feel sad, and i think your open and brave admission that you feel neglected is very innocent but also confronting to my sense of sympathy. you want to be applauded much more than me, but i can understand that being ignored despite your best efforts is disheartening.

i have said already too much so i will now post some stuff to the music thread, and also to the art thread.

please know that your name and avatar and personality are memorable.


just be strong and consistent. there are seasons for everything. your flavor may become a specialty with some other members if you just give them time to sample that flavor over time.

i say something here every night but 99% of the time it is ignored. 1% of the time someone will read and respond to what i say, and that makes up for the other 99% who do not even bother to read what i say.

everyone is different. there will always be someone who treasures what you say, and you may never know it because they are lurkers who for some reason never joined the site.

I see like 99% of the posts I make and go "Wow, I'm an idiot for writing that. Why the f**k did I say that on a public forum...?"

Also, hardly anyone ever comments on my art I post, meaning they don't care about it, or they think it's bad and didn't tell me. Am I that bad of an artist?

I've been here for a couple months, and I thought I'd fit in. Apparently, I'm not as welcome here as I thought. Whenever I have an opinion on something, I am often either criticized or corrected. When it's the latter, I didn't know most of the time; I mean, I'm just as human as the rest of the WPers here. Also, hardly anyone ever comments on my art I post, meaning they don't care about it, or they think it's bad and didn't tell me. Am I that bad of an artist?

I don't even know if I can deal with this anymore...

@b9 - You wrote "...and I do not feel they are really autistic..."

I've often wondered if some of these gatecrashers were nothing more than bullying NT's. They've found, in a sense, an easy population to manipulate and conquer. Of course, this clouds my vision of who is really on the spectrum and who isn't. If they really are on the spectrum, then I would avoid an aspie bar anticipating they would show up. If I knew for sure they were just trespassing on WP, I'd feel more relaxed in entering an aspie bar (if they ever had them).