My final work.... planning suicide.

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Kenya
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18 Dec 2014, 11:19 pm

Protogenoi wrote:
Kenya wrote:
What sort of video games do you have and for what system?

I have 25 consoles...
Nintendo:
NES(Broken), SNES(Broken), N64(Broken), NGC, Wii... GB, GBC, GBA, NDS
Sega:
Genesis(Broken), Dreamcast, Gamegear (Broken)
Sony:
PS, PS2, PS3 (Broken), PSP (Broken)
Microsoft:
Xbox(Broken), Xbox 360 (Broken)
Bandai:
Wonderswan Colour
SNK:
NeoGeo AES
Panasonic:
3DO
Atari:
2600
PC:
Windows 98, Windows 7(Half-broken)

And a 70's pong machine.

I mostly have old NES, SNES, and Genesis games... my second larger group of games would be NGC, Dreamcast, and PS2.
And the reason most things are broken is because I bought them that way for cheap... no one takes me to charity shops anymore because I'll compulsively buy everything gaming related in sight until I run out of money. Some of those systems are worth quite a bit of money, but I got it all cheap. My parents want me to sell them, but that won't happen. I won't let other people touch most of them unless I'm in the room. I would rather die than sell them. They are very precious to me. Does that make me a horrible person? ... I feel like it isn't right that I should feel this way and also have these possessions. But I can't play the consoles anymore, my parents made rules concerning them a long time ago. If there is something they don't like in the content of a game, then I can't play it under their roof and I'm only allowed to play when someone is with me or if their watching me. And they always make fun of my games. This tears me apart, I don't want to live here.

Today I attempted to fix the PS3 since my parents are away for a few days and felt better. I failed and now I feel horrible. Maybe I damaged it more in the process? meh...


Nonono. It doesn't make you a horrible person. I'll admit that there are certain things I have that I don't want others to touch at all. That just means that it's outside of my comfort zone. Just like you. Anyways, I have a PS3 and a Wii, both in great working condition even if the Wii was pre-owned. What sort of Wii games do you have? Got any Mario Kart?



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19 Dec 2014, 9:04 am

Protogenoi wrote:
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I'm alone and there doesn't seem to be any escape from my situation.


I won't bore you with talk you've heard many times, I'm sure, how you have so much life ahead of you, etc.. You may have even heard you are fearfully and wonderfully made, and here for a special purpose.

It all starts from where your mindset is. If you see yourself as hav8ng potential for something, you can. I heard a man at my church with cerebral palsy(sp?) really bad, David ring. He has overcome so much, and you can, too.

But, now you don't likely want to hear "Yes, you can overcome." You likely need someone to talk to.

I don't work with the special suicide group, but i work in an online ministry that would definitely have someone who you can talk to and feel encouraged.

Please, go to one of our sites, like http://www.godlife.com/hope/, or maybe disability.godlife.com, and even if you don't want to watch a video but just click so you can get your e-mail sent in our secure server to someone, there is hope.

It may not seem easy to understand, or even believe, but even if you have seen people say they are Christian and not act like it, I ask you: let's say you had friends who pretended they played video games, talked all about them, but never actually played. Would that make you enjoy them any less?

Please, visit one of our www.godlife.com sites and talk to someone. Life is worth living.

I will pray for you. There had to be a reason by I felt led to read this this morning, even though I rarely come here. God lvoes you, and I care, too.

I'm sorry if this is the wrong forum, but saving lives is important to me. Although i might have been able to PM I don't know if you'd have read it, as I'm not sure how you are about random strangers PM'ing you.



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19 Dec 2014, 2:32 pm

Im in a similar situation myself as far as advice i may not have much to offer that would not be hypocritical ecxept to hang in there.Thats all i can do these days and to try to not let the bad thoughts take over.
I try to get out as much as possible,biking,hiking,skiing in the woods or go toa friends place(even if it stresses me out at least its temporary)anything to not be here,though there are times i need the isolation.

No,your special interest and collecting them does not make you a bad person,it is who you are.I have tools i let no one else use,and if so i need to be there and only if i trust that person with it.Only one other person has ever touched my milwaukee reciprocating saw,and it still kind of bothered me.

Axis and allies is my all time favorite board game.I had a friend who had it and brough it over every time he came over.I used the begining troop placement chart to make my own chart to continue the games.They could last for months.

Whats up with your ps3?ive had a couple crap out on me (xbox 360 too)friggin chips coming un soldered.