I think it was my fault I was bullied at work

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It's really lovely that you have found a positive medium as a means to helping you move forward and grow

You should be proud of yourself Tamaya

I'm trying. So hard.

I'm feeling emotional right now. I feel that git has left me a reputation that I'm ashamed of. I wish I hadn't denied taking his chocolate. Hasn't he ever been in a situation where he had to tell a white lie because he felt too embarrassed to admit the truth, but it didn't hurt anybody's feelings? Hasn't he ever done anything dishonest before? Oh, only claiming double his hours so that the company paid him more for not even being there. But I guess that ain't as bad as denying taking a chocolate bar because you were embarrassed.

It just hurt knowing that others liked him and didn't see his evil side. One man thought he was wonderful because he came and fixed his bus at short notice. If only he realised what an a**hole he really was and how he made me feel and how he's still making me feel when he's not even there. But if I say anything it's my own fault for taking his chocolate and denying it.

I hate seeing people being hateful towards people who don't want to work. Can you blame people for not wanting to work? Maybe they find drama and conflict in the workplace really draining and stressful to deal with. Some of us have non-conformist personalities that aren't suited for the workplace and it isn't always easy to find work from home or self-employment, especially if you don't drive.

I have this, and it's why I don't take rules and pettiness too kindly:-

Work is certainly very stressful. It is a very multifaceted experience and any one of the facets can unexpectedly become a major stressor.

I think you are very tough, Tamaya.

I don't know what to say other than

Also having the reputation that I have now (which wouldn't have got around the whole workplace and stained me if that bully hadn't of been a loudmouth), I've noticed I often run into situations where I've been accused of something but not been believed, got upset, then made to look like I'm trying to manipulate by getting all upset and that. But it's not that at all.

It's a bit like last Christmas time when someone had tampered with a colleague's desk, and I got pulled into the office and blamed for it - even though I knew I had never touched the desk. I think it was the bully who had set me up like that, but I can't prove that. He couldn't prove that I tampered with the desk either, but because of my reputation, his word got believed over my word.

Then a few months ago I had very thoroughly cleaned a bus and mopped the floor and I knew I had done it all, but the next day I was told that I hadn't mopped the floor on the bus and they showed me dried bits of swarf that was on the floor. I said that that wasn't there the night before after I had mopped the floor, and that maybe one of the morning workers had got on there and done it, but I wasn't believed and it looked like I was just denying again.

It's horrible how one white lie (the chocolate incident) can put such a reputation on to you like that, even though white lying is something humans do every day. Oh why oh WHY didn't I just own up to the chocolate bar incident to the bully there and then?

Oh none of that is your fault, Tamaya.

It's really horrible you're being treated that way. There's no justification for it.

It was his fault. He shouldn't have left the chocolate bar lying around.

I'm just going to turn a traumatic situation into a funny one.

Actual footage of me at the peak of the bullying last year when I was called into the office for yet another accusation:

Hey, or actual Footage of Cornflake when he sees more spam on WP.

That clip has made me see the funny side to anything frustrating at the moment. Maybe I should create a thread where we give meme-like quotes, like "actual footage of me when_______"

Oh by the way, the depression and overthinking I had last weekend was due to PMT, something I don't always get with a period but I do occasionally.

If it has lifted I am very glad I had been wanting to ask.

That memes thread sounds like fun! I am not good at games like that but I would enjoy lurking

Oh I see memes everywhere. I'd love to create loads of memes but whenever I've tried those meme-maker sites or apps it always wants me to pay in some way.