jfberge wrote:
marshall wrote:
I had this sensation like I was always cringing from something inside me (kind of a fingernails-on-chalkboard feeling). The cringy feeling made me want to tightly clench my fists, curl my toes, or lay fetal position. It's impossible for me to accurately describe what that feeling is like.
You did a good job of describing it. Pretty much spot on. I feel overloaded/overwhelmed like I'm wound way too tight and at any moment I'm going to either cry or curl up under my desk or have a seizure. It makes me feel very small and frightened, if that makes any sense, like a squirrel trapped in a cage. Clonazepam withdrawl would be a quick route to that. I'm not sure why I get it, beyond some perfect storm of med levels and brain state and blood sugar? It seems to peak in the afternoon. I just had it happen yesterday.
I got it really bad when going through withdrawal, but I actually do get this feeling other times. I also got it when I first started taking SSRI antidepressants. I had today because I was over tired and drank too much coffee to stay awake. I also get it if I eat a heavy meal when I'm tired. Sometimes I feel like I need to immediatly get up and walk around after eating at a restaurant. I get feeling uncomfortable sitting at the table after eating too much. I also get this feeling if I take a nap during the day. I have it the rest of the day after a nap.
It isn't really a fear sensation for me. It's more like a physical tension. Unlike mental anxiety, thinking relaxing thoughts does nothing to make it go away. Instead it feels like I need to crawl out of my own skin. Just the thought of being trapped in my own body makes me feel uncomfortable.
23 Oct 2007, 6:26 pm
