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I'm tired.

I saw the rolling eyes, and felt the unexpressed expectations weighing down once again. Is it denial, or are you truly blind? Here I am, wondering what I did wrong now while you add your black marks against my scale of wrongness. I still wish I could be accepted, rather than resigned about. I feel like you don't even try sometimes.

tell it, brother

YAY I am coming to the reluctant conclusion that having to do everything alone and without any help, is probably better for all concerned, than knowing somebody who finds me to be little more than an irritant.

Turn your bloody TV down you selfish bastard.

Put some salt down on the sidewalks, they are ice rinks, and I really don't want to break something.

My inverted sleep schedule and lack of a daily routine has been driving me nuts lately. I've been having a hard time keeping up with the math course I've been taking, and my medication schedule has been right out of whack as well. I've been here for a few weeks now, and I still haven't transferred my prescriptions.

...and knowing you, it's all my fault.

Stop telling me that I should smile. I have a constant headache all morning and you're not helping at all.

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"I don't want a relationship right now." More like, "I don't want a relationship with you - ever."

But sucking at some other guy's face in my presence - totally cool, right?

What was with that conversation yesterday? You know I have autism, right?
So why would you talk about that girl and say right in front of my face, "She's so odd. She must have autism."
How do you think that makes me feel?
Oh, right. I'm autistic so I don't have feelings.

Oh yeah, and don't tell me you know how I feel because you're "an introvert too".
You have no f*****g idea.

It would be so nice, for a change, if people would consider the possibility that I'm doing the best I can rather than waking up every morning with the thought in my head: "I wonder how many people I can piss off today. I wonder what would be the best way to annoy every person who crosses my path today."

As if.

As if your habits don't annoy the crap out of me sometimes too. I learned to let most of it roll off my back like water off a duck.

But being treated like my daily goal is to infuriate people--especially the people I'm closest to by family or by team at work--is really starting to grate at my inner peace.

Only a tiny handful of people give me the benefit of the doubt. I'm glad my daughters are two of those.

^^^
Tacoma, yay hope you give the square pegs meetup [this Saturday@ 12:30PM] at evergreen college a try.

F#!k all the other reindeer, and their stupid reindeer games. I'd take my marbles and go home, but I'm stuck in the undertow.