10 Jul 2018, 5:20 pm
. Whatever YT videos Ezra (I think) wanted me to watch, I believed they were clearly just things discouraging me from wanting to go to uni - That seemed to be already said verbally. It may be that my health, anyway, may make college undoable - There, is that " realistic " enough for you ? So the comment on my mother's comments/ actions to me I. 1978 mean that I DESERVED to come back home from cc and have her drunkenly scream at me - and say " I'm paying the bills! " when I pointed that out? 
A Nd put me away when she sobered up a little ? I have already thanked RR privately - even if I can never go, the transcripts could be a dream of what could have been .You can take online courses these days, or just read books, for the education. That way you wouldn't have to hobble across a campus on 4 and a half toes with a heavy load of books on your back.
10 Jul 2018, 5:27 pm
10 Jul 2018, 5:33 pm
...RU - Though I am trying to ignore you, if I did campus-go, I could see myself using an electric wheelchair to get around. I have less than 4&1/2 toes, and my hobbled crippled was in walking is more the point than the gone toes .
Ash - in 1978 I wanted to get away from home and have my teenage fun start . Yes, fine, I realize that kind of fun isn't gettable anymore - Us that " realistic " enough for you ? I don't particularly want " partying ", either.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
10 Jul 2018, 5:39 pm
. Whatever YT videos Ezra (I think) wanted me to watch, I believed they were clearly just things discouraging me from wanting to go to uni - That seemed to be already said verbally. It may be that my health, anyway, may make college undoable - There, is that " realistic " enough for you ? So the comment on my mother's comments/ actions to me I. 1978 mean that I DESERVED to come back home from cc and have her drunkenly scream at me - and say " I'm paying the bills! " when I pointed that out? A Nd put me away when she sobered up a little ? I have already thanked RR privately - even if I can never go, the transcripts could be a dream of what could have been .ASS-P, it is my understanding from your older posts that you did go to college for two years. You must have completed one year to get in to year two. If it wasn’t NYU what college was it? And I expect your mother wanted you to be a success at day to day college before going off to an in residence college. I expected the same for my own child.
10 Jul 2018, 5:45 pm
I have less than 4&1/2 toes, and my hobbled crippled was in walking is more the point than the gone toes .Ash - in 1978 I wanted to get away from home and have my teenage fun start
. Yes, fine, I realize that kind of fun isn't gettable anymore - Us that " realistic " enough for you ? I don't particularly want " partying ", either.Really. Electric wheelchairs are bulky and very expensive. Where would you keep it and plug it in? How could afford to buy one?
10 Jul 2018, 6:05 pm
. Yes, fine, I realize that kind of fun isn't gettable anymore - Us that " realistic " enough for you ? I don't particularly want " partying ", either.I hear you - I had life goals that didn't end up being feasible either, and I know that's hard to come to terms with. It's completely understandable you'd want to get away from an abusive home situation as a teenager, and I wish things could have been different for you.
Yes, I am a realist, and tend to be more concerned with basic medical and housing needs. But I'm certainly not against working toward your college goals - and in fact college is far more likely to happen if you have stable housing and are in good health, so my 'realism' is not necessarily in conflict with your agenda here
10 Jul 2018, 6:50 pm
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11 Jul 2018, 12:44 am
...My, Ezra, touchy 
? So you are " always a thug " at times? Ezra Shakur, yo! 
I am not very oriented towards extended TT videos, anyway. All I have, remember, is a teeny-tiny portable phone, and I have all but no access to even the library computers, it being so hard to get there. I basically tend to not watch extended things on YT, just music...which you don't " watch " so much. Holding up a teeny phone and looking at something on it, on its tiny screen...it's a bit much. I don't have a laptop or a desk computer, where you can watch something TV-style at length...Basically, I'm always in bed, and gave to strain myself, holding up the phone to look at it.
So, watching 1/2-hour vids on YT?Somewhat of a strain. 
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BS. This isn't a situation where I'm always a thug. I watch those videos to hear someone tell me what I will be up against, so that I will know what to expect, not to discourage myself, or you.[/quote]
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
11 Jul 2018, 1:28 am
? So you are " always a thug " at times? Ezra Shakur, yo! I am not very oriented towards extended TT videos, anyway. All I have, remember, is a teeny-tiny portable phone, and I have all but no access to even the library computers, it being so hard to get there. I basically tend to not watch extended things on YT, just music...which you don't " watch " so much. Holding up a teeny phone and looking at something on it, on its tiny screen...it's a bit much. I don't have a laptop or a desk computer, where you can watch something TV-style at length...Basically, I'm always in bed, and gave to strain myself, holding up the phone to look at it.
So, watching 1/2-hour vids on YT?Somewhat of a strain.
No you're the touchy one. You'd accuse an 8 year old girl scout of bullying you.
And remember I also have a piece of s**t phone, with a cracked screen
And also a severe coordination disability which makes it hard to type and also cripples my walking I have too many sob stories of my own, to shed many tears over yours Btw, it was only a 3 minute video
that I watched on my cheap generic phone with the busted screen
11 Jul 2018, 2:00 am
...I am aware of your greater degree of handicapped mess than I, Ezra, and you have mentioned the cracked-screen phone as well. I do not know whether that phone is the only tech in your household that you can watch anything on. My phones are that wiith me.
I will admit, too, given that I am older, I haven't so much made the transition to watching vids on the Web for instructional/discussion thing. I suppose it's something you grew up with. I am more readinf-oriented, for intake of a arguments. I didn't call you a bully .
Now, I think I will try to watch something at length on YT that I've always said I'd watch - an episode of this famously crappy 50s TV show, " Queen For A Day ", a surviving episode on YT. However. I'll likely close my eyes and listen to the audio .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
11 Jul 2018, 2:13 am
At least you have 2 phones 
I only have this ONE PHONE. with a busted screen I only have one cheap busted phone at a time because I keep breaking them because of how crippled my hands are It seems clear that you're trying to discourage me from watching even a 3 minute video on it And that you hate me and I'm scum for daring to mention my problems .
11 Jul 2018, 3:44 am
...Ezra, the last two sentences of your post are - a bit much. You are trying to parody my posting style, I suppose.
To be Mr. Literal here, I certainly do not want to discourage you from. watching anything! And I don't " think your scum ", not at all, and speaking of your problems is just fine.
I think you are displaying this tendency you have towards leaping into big arguments here.
Now, I am going to listen to another Queen For A Day episode. It was hosted by Jack Bailey.
zraS"]At least you have 2 phones I only have this ONE PHONE. with a busted screen I only have one cheap busted phone at a time because I keep breaking them because of how crippled my hands are It seems clear that you're trying to discourage me from watching even a 3 minute video on it And that you hate me and think I'm scum for daring to mention my problems . [/quote]
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
11 Jul 2018, 4:02 am
11 Jul 2018, 4:24 am
...And yours - and your choice of arguments - isn't ? Queen For A Day!
zraS"]
Yeah I think your whole routine is an act. Your problems may be as real as mine are, but your posting style as you put it is obviously a crafted charade.[/quote]
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
