Rants

Post Reply New Topic

No, it doesn't bother me. Although I doubt it, unless they die suddenly (which I wouldn't want).

I feel so lonely here. I dont want to be here, i want to find a home where i feel safe. My boyfriend is driving me crazy. I feel so lonely now. I wish i had a friend i could talk to. I need support. I need caring. I am sick of people telling me what is wrong with me or what i am feeling. Why dont they just listen to me? Dont i matter anymore?

^^^we will listen to you.

^^You matter. Everyone matters. Love from a little kitty:

Why am I such an incompetent putz? I should know by now to never trust what the bank tells me is my current balance in my checking account. I thought I had enough in the account when I withdrew $200.00 last week in order to have new tie rod ends, lower ball joints and o2 sensors on this piece of sh!t car I'm still paying on. Next thing I know, I get an email alert that the check I wrote for my car payment bounced. I expect the snake that runs the buy here pay here dealer I bought this piece of junk from will be here any minute to repo the car.

That, and all the other bullsh!t that has been going on lately hasn't made me the most pleasant person to be around lately.

I CONFUSE MYSELF!!

Or maybe I'm driving myself insane. I swear I haven't ate anything unusual lately or at all for the past week!! Nothing unusual happened and I don't expect one.. Maybe.
My needs are fulfilled, from basic to realistic like content.
Not in a quarrel nor in trouble with anything. I don't even have problems or in a conflict.
So WHY??? I'm not fighting myself and I'm far from hating myself at all. Not depressed or anxious or any mood at all but internal confusion. I'm far from stressed if anything, I'm too relaxed... Wait what??

I feel so indifferent and all caring at the same time. Hahah! And oh, I'm sure it's not the hormones spiking. It's just my internal thoughts debating on NOTHING. And no, I don't agree or disagree with everything! Or try to be all grey stupid neutral, I'm done with that.

Why am'I ranting about myself confusing myself???

Gained Number Post Count (1).
Lose Time (n).

Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

I fail.
At everything.

A little work rant...
The three of you are witches, the two of you are sheep in wolf's clothing, you are a wolf in sheep's clothing, in fact nearly all of you are masquerading as Bees!

my back is barking at me.

i can't get my regular desktop lamp to output the right amount of light for my "claymations".

i ended up taping a painted over plastic lid to it and it worked.

then it melted onto the lamp and i can't remove the paint off the lid now. and the cord is too short.


Fuuuuuuuuuuck.

I feel old.

time is accelerating and i would do anything to slow it down.

and i thought i would never say this.

if you think this ol' world is spinnin' too fast now, you just wait 'til you get to be my age.

this is my last full year as a teen.

the indian frankincense I took a few hours ago doesn't seem to be doing anything.