All I can do is work.

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(28 hours of main playlist, including offspring, hehe).
i've posted some in a music topic, maybe u u like it)

My usual for working too hard has been some really extreme metal & rave music for the most part.

sorry for slow responce, im going through one hell of a round again.
i like different music, basically dont care for genre as long as it, well, think AUSOME people can understand, as long is it tastes right. yep, adjacent senses, never really realised - everything melds and i can taste and smell sound. so it goes from Joe Dassin to children of bodom, basically. though most playlist is in various genres of heavy. i prefere lyrics i can understand, too, but for good singing i can have it otherwise too.

Well now I have doctors orders to get a professional massage. Normally I avoid humans. This will be weird, possibly even moreso for the masseuse.

people, who professionally work with people, are ready for any weird, dont worry. for u, well, it'd be stupid to tell u to just relax, advices like that never work. so just go there. and get thru it)))

I've decided to go with rolfing, which is some kind of massage I've heard is better suited to sports injuries. I have a big combination of those & repetitive strains from tech work. For now I'm digging into the cannabidiol hash, which is really good for this stuff, just relaxing that is. I have to shut my brain up before I can get the rest of me to chill out.

haha ya shutting off dat brain must be a real task. i know i have probs there xD tho, hot, hot shower quite helps with strains)

I got home half an hour ago & I already have to get out of here. Maybe I'll just go to sleep 2 hours early. The cat is helping but I apparently have not done enough to turn the stress off. There was some awful manager being awful to his subordinate in the conference room behind me, it was so bad another manager dropped in to shut him up. I'm thankful for her, sorry for the victim & completely without any energy to process what I could've done better. Had I done the right thing I might've lost my job anyway. That's the first abuse of power I've seen in 2 months or so at my job & I hope it's the last. The only other problem was some idiot(s) taking electronics of my desk, the mouse I got back & the conference headset I could care less about.

I need to go see some people I know but I doubt anyone has the night free. An easy Monday just had to go & turn into an extremely stressful one.

At least you have a job

Some of us, such as myself, do not

I can barely read a book in the bookstore

Too many distractions

What kind of work do you do?

I test industrial 3d scanning & map modeling software. I enjoy the work but I'm pretty close to the end of my internship contract so I need to figure out how to keep my job too.

I keep feeling like I'm permanently sealed off from people who know me even though I'm aware it's not true. If I were unemployed right now at least I'd have some energy to address the loose ends in my personal life. Instead I'm just working so I can hypothetically do that more easily at some point in the future.

Being close to anyone is pretty damn near impossible for a really serious geek.

bro hug for the cberg

Thanks, I suppose I should have clarified that's not exactly the case on WP.

I was just observing that I'm not on very much of the internet despite my electronic obsessions I'm not on very much of the normal internet.

work can get in the way of the normal internet

My sympathies, I know that feeling all too well. When I've had a job, even one that I enjoyed, I've usually ended up unable to cope with any social life outside it. It takes all the mental-battery charging I can muster just to be able to work the next day. My last job started out as just assembling electronics gadgets, and I got on pretty well with that; quite varied, and using my technical skills, but not too mentally demanding. Getting promoted once my CAD and coding skills had been discovered turned out to be a disaster. The constant intellectual work, task-switching, and project management stuff just completely drained my brain every day. No way was I having any conversation that wasn't absolutely necessary on a workday evening.


My employer's internet logs were a particular point of interest when I was made redundant from that job!
(Just you watch that dirty mind of yours, you! )

The stupidest thing was that I just pretended I was fine for months on end, and had absolutely no illusion that hyperfocusing on my special interests instead of working would go unnoticed; the more I got away with it, the more I did it. I think maybe I wanted to get caught, to finally bring the situation to a head and stop myself procrastinating about it. Thankfully, once my poor mental health and pending autism assessment were known, the redundancy was actually dealt with very amicably. I wouldn't have wanted to stay, because I genuinely liked the boss and my colleagues, and I did feel very guilty about it (guilt tripping myself is always a great idea when I'm already depressed, I find! )

@ferris: Well that it has, completely & entirely. I've been pondering for years how I can be more personable on the internet but it's not easy.

I can do good work there but only if I get to sleep NOW.