I'm gonna phrase this as gently as possible...

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Hey all, I'm back from the hospital, and on a careful regiment of pills until my follow-up X-rays...

Well, now that I've had 5 days to think about all that's happened, and this is kinda embarrassing...

Maybe I shouldn't be so hard on my dad....

You see, yesterday afternoon, after I'd been discharged, Mom, Dad and I went to a little cafe to have a light lunch...and yes, even though I was ready to order, but he reminded me to do so anyway...I surprisingly didn't get mad. Maybe because I was so happy to get away from that roommate from Hell

But then, when we were about 2/3rds of the way through lunch...a song came on the radio in the dining room area..."The Last Song", by Elton John. Here's a video of it...

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJbS8Fzo8LA[/youtube]

By the end of it...I was almost tearing up in the restaurant, but couldn't because we were in public...I really would rather think that I got teared-up because of just the prettiness of the song, and not it's message, but that would be a lie.

And on a humorous note, something someone said here before, I slipped into a conversation there. I was telling my folks how ridiculous they'd be 10 years from now with their silly arguments, and dad said "I don't think I'll be around that long". To which I said, 'Nah, you'll probably live 'til you're 80, *just* to spite me!", and we all laughed about that. ^_^

*shrugs* see you around...hope you like the song...

Well jeeze, yeah that might not be so nice but there are definately worse things!
I mean.. my mom used to scream at me and hit me anytime I disagreed with her and called me a b***h and said that I was a bad person and deserved to die.

I hated her sometimes for sure. But I never wanted to kill her. I'm not at all judging you. I'm just saying things could be worse you know?

I think you should take a deep breath and try to relax and put things in perspective. So what if your father thinks you're a theif? How does that affect your life really?

Usagi, those who say families have unconditional love are those who must have had very happy lives. I understand what you mean, and you are not a bad person. I have a similar relationship with my mother, yet nobody seems to understand.

And for the record, the condiments in restaurants and hotels are factored into the price, you're only taking what the restaurant/hotel owes you. I learnt this from my dad.

Usagi... why do your parents' opinions matter so much to you? And what about applying that concept of unconditional love to yourself as well? I'm sorry for your hurt, and can understand the anger - admittedly but not proudly, there is an appreciation in me for what my step-father experienced and endured before he passed - but such things don't serve you, and only hurt you over time. Why continue to give it life?


M.

Please - I'm not upset in the least. I just question why you continue to hurt yourself by holding yourself to their standards, which you've already realized that you can never meet and they will find fault in you each time. You're a pretty keen individual - if you weren't, you wouldn't be capable of the insights you've shown along the way. My intent was to have you ask yourself whose life you wanted to lead, and who made those decisions? Ultimately, I believe that is up to you - time to focus on the future instead of the past. Keep talking, keep evolving... this is a good path.


M.