My life was a misfire

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Of course, it would be ideal if a social worker would help him fill out the waiting-list application. Ideally, the social worker will be a decent person who treats him like a human being.

I don’t believe it is a lack of ability on ASS-P’s part. I believe, rather, that anxiety and bad past experiences are the culprits causing him to be reluctant to pursue this on his own.

...I lost two drafts , one of them quite full . Well, perhaps I can console myself with Ezra's, at 17, superior knowledge of how eye operations are done !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...My concentration was on wanting help in making sure that, if I applied again, my TLPOP would go to the right place and avoid another fiasco , not on filling out the application forms! RU tells how he did it ALL HIMSELF, BA instructs me that The Sacred College-Industrial Complex must not be questioned! You can have no help!...Yeah, okay, whatever...if people are going to bring this issue up I'm going to correct them !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Meanwhile, Delusional-Ashariel (who is socially naive and lacks a filter) has crossed over to Paranoid-Ashariel (who trusts no one, including herself). What a mess. (And now, out comes Silly-Ashariel, who just laughs at it all...)

I apologize for my long-winded rambling over the past few days. I just re-read all that stuff, and it's not that I disagree with what I said, it's just... I have trouble fathoming why I thought it was necessary to say all that.

I also re-read the first 20 or so(?) pages of this thread, before I joined in (while psychotic... can this thread get any worse?) And while I now can vaguely recall reading all that before, I have to admit that while I was posting over the past few days, I had zero awareness of the previous context. In which, I now realize, XFG was cracking down on ASS-P's behavior. (Sorry. Good lord, ban me, before I do this again.)

So I apologize for my delusional failure to understand that, over the past few days. I get it now. Yes, ASS-P's behavior has definitely been out of line. (So has mine, and Ezra's, and nearly everyone in this thread, as near as I can tell.)

I also apologize if anything I rambled on about was hurtful to anyone. (Mostly it just seems boring?) It does reflect my honest feelings about all this, but perhaps didn't need to be said.

ASS-P, I'm sorry for the brutal honesty. But in a weird way, it's probably for the best, if it gets you to realize that you are infinitely better off seeking help from a professional social worker, than a forum full of people who either (a) think you're putting on an act, or (b) believe you, and try to impart life-and-death advice while psychotic.

Sorry, everyone. I really ought to be banned, because I can't guarantee this won't happen again.

...My focus was on the question of untying the lost-ness of the TLPOP in their complete form. and, frankly, I think that much/most " caring profession " persons would. if I brought the subject up. launch into another go-rounf of the " 'Skinky dinky Dee " narrative - They would just robotically repeat the " Your GREAT HS alma mater will do it all for you! Oh boy! " storyline,..and I REAY think past events have shown that doing another attempt at that minus something to make it sure that the proper transcripts would go through would be like sticking your foot in a lion's mouth, with your eyes closed, and saying " Mr. Lion, you'll be nice to me this time...right? ".
By contrast, some form of preparation might get things so that the TLPOP would go to the right place...WHICH THEY IN THE PAST, EVIDENTLY, HAVE ----NOT---- DONE! .
I had little access to social workers and little to better tech on which an explanation might be more easily composed, and.
again, I think that such personnel. if the subject was broached, would instantly break into ' Oh boy! Your eonderful HS alma mater will do it all for you! ". That DOES NOT SEEM TO WORK FOR ME!
I just wanted, first up. to get past the TLPOP logjam.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Thank goodness brave sir Robin came forth to the rescue risking life and limb to vanquish the terrifying lady of the school office.