scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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6.
I HATE rain, especially when there is wind too.
Where did the sun go?
Got a bar of chocolate...eating way too much lately, lol.

I get lost in the choice
the coin I carry only laughs twice
my inner voice is infinite
my outer voice is non-existent
the choice is finite
and I wonder why this is existent
when neither can communicate
at least I survived
unlike the piece that dies
when I try to communicate
with myself and you in that deathly place

10.

Have just returned from a lovely 28 hours or so in Cornwall. Had a most spiffing time and I have the pub quiz to look forward to tonight.

All is nice.

Lucky you... love Cornwall...can't wait to go back. Which part were you in?
And your word use... like 'spiffing' and your username keep making me think of some dapper guy from the 30s or something, lol.

I went to the north coast, near St Agnes - was lovely.

I'm often compared to olde worlde P.G Woodehouse characters, sort of 'Jeeves and Wooster' types. My accent kinda adds to it as well.

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I'm gone
another verse
another day alone
night universe

Deep poem. I like the imagery.

Number is back up to a 7. I took a shower and calmed down. Plus, it's storming outside! Not only raining, but also thunder (the lightning is a little hard to see, but it's there). I love storms. The only downside is the terrified cat who is clinging to me right now.

We went to many areas as we visited several times... I loved Tintagel, tho sadly it was pretty commercialised when I went...and the smaller coves. Is Robin Hoods Bay Cornwall? If so, we went there too. I get mixed up as we used to haunt Yorkshire too

2.
Chloé came by with 2 friends.
I loved just sitting there next to her, sharing gentle contact.

Goddamnit, I'm never going to get over her.



I'm becoming so f*****g emotional all the time i just want to stab myself in the face and act all though.
I used to be one of those with the mindset of the elitist, 'emotions are for wussies', 'everyone is an inefficient, unlogical fucknut' guy but that has completely changed.
Now i really wish i still had retained some of those mindsets.

Only went to Tintagel once, not been back since. I went to a little cove near to St Agnes called Chapel Porth. My family have been visting there for generations, a lovely place.

Robin Hoods bay is Yorkshire, near Bridlington.

a relaxing day
will have a few g+t's and watch a movie.
who needs prozac
7.012

+9 evrythings going great in my life

^^ your moods seem to change even more dramatically and rapidly than mine do

Me, I am a 7... content, but cannot decide what the hell to so as I am in a slightly manic mood, wanting to share everything, but no one to share it with.

Drinking sounds great right now... but it went pretty horribly for me last night. Still...tempting... I will have to think on this some before I take action.

4. Doing better, hangover gone, but still really irritated by the guy that doesn't seem capable of leaving my apartment and finding somewhere to live. He overloaded the silverware part of the dishwasher. The clean dishwasher. He then ran it. Well, if you overload the silverware with food caked on it, guess what, it doesn't get clean, and it might even get other stuff dirty.

I'm giving him until Tuesday, then I'm telling him he has to be out before I move the first half of my stuff back home. Again, hate conflict, but I'm f*****g sick of his s**t. I really need to write down the fact that I'm not up to living with others right now, with very few exceptions.

-4

well i drink every day, usually a bottle of wine. this is okay, sometimes i will open a 2nd bottle or start hitting too many gin+tonics. when it gets to the point where i knew i should have gone to bed hours ago, but get another drink, then the next day is gonna be bad. So long as i don't do that regularly, then things are okay.
smoking weed will cut my drinking down, but we have problems with paranoia and anxiety when i do that regular
i see no difference in self-medicating this way as taking ssri's every day.
of course you have to be aware what you doing.

I could never live with anyone for a long period, some company is nice for a few days.
obviously i don't know the situation, but anyone taking liberties would be told; then straight out next time.