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I saw where it ended when I broke down in your hallway actually,

I have dreamed dreams,

Its the only thing that makes logical sense,

Nab him I say, I hope you used my server to do it actually cause its ironic but then again I've lost the tiny bit of mind I've had so I don't know. I probably don't know where it ends and yeah I lost my mind when I was abused, I can remember it pretty clearly, I was crying and then I lost it. But its not all bad, it gave me theory of mind, NOT that I am recommending we abuse autistic people in the worse way possible, just stating, it had that effect on me.

And I don't mean I saw the possibility, I mean I saw it.

It was flashes but I saw it and you can go ahead and label me nuts, I don't really care. I'll take meds forever, its fine.

It grieves my spirit, his action and mine but I didn't hurt anyone at a min.

I am going to get drunk and become a raging F-ing alcoholic...

Yes I am, can't do weed, gonna get drunk.

Personally I would rather have weed but I guess I'll follow the rules... and get drunk.

I can't function either way so its hard to really know what does and doesn't work for me.

NOTHING helps but I would rather be calm and I can be calm on both weed and alcohol and I don't suppose it really matters how straight for a line I walk these days. I am f****d with a capitol F either way and apparently no one cares which can make the mind wonder on what people do care about. That is why I am f****d with a capitol F cause I haven't figured it out either

i'm team dragnet, but not fbi team dragnet.

it must be very distressing being unsure who you can trust.

They already knew before they asked

I am crazy and I don't fake that but I am also not a total dumbass in logic,

It grieves the spirit if you want to know the truth and its not entirely what it looks like but its fine,

I love my mom, she was one of the few that did for me on the streets and it was the same broken system that led to me being homeless that is gonna f**k me now. If you only knew what your going to put this woman through you would find another way to keep people safe. My brother is not a nice person but if you only knew what it would do to my mom.

I am sorry mom, I never meant to hurt you.

I am actually a pretty sorry excuse for human being

I shouldn't have to pick between whats right and family, that is not a fair choice to have to have and it grieves my spirit.

Here's a way to get a laugh.

Watch the color, 1960s version of the show "Dragnet."

It would be a good escape. Sergeant Friday was just such a simple-minded sort.

Personally I am alright with life in a state hospital, I mean yeah it totally sucks but there are worse things in life and it wasn't that bad to be honest, its not more then I can bear but where the loves stops is with my mom. She got raw deal in life and it never got easier, she watched her family fall apart and her son go to Prison and now she is going to see more of it. Its not right, in fact its the most unjust thing I have seen in my life. That right there is where the love stops from me, myself, I don't care but my mom. I love her to death, more then anything in this world.

And I f****d it up,

I f****d it up so big

I f****d it up bigly ok

They weren't lying when they said you hurt the people you love most did they?

That quote is all too real.

I guess my brother has a stake in this too,

She deserved better children, not an a**hole and an autistic one... Sometime I feel the two might be interchangeable.

See how little I ask for?

Have a Minecraft hour in there three time a week and I'll love the asylum.

It really wasn't that bad, I am alright with it and you know Minecraft hour might be a good study for crazy people.

I'll watch some Dragnet if I find something to watch it on, place is still kinda of wrecked but thats my own fault, not functioning to well cause I can't have what makes me function

I am drunk too now... for the lulz...

Its all for the lulz,

You want my brother take him, you want me take me too.

I would say make it peaceful but its not gonna be peaceful so come taser me bunch... for the lulz...

Remember its for the lulz... I lost my mind for the lulz...

Lets lulz ourselves right into jail for the... lulz...

We ain't got off this lulz train yet, there is a lot left here, and I hate unused lulz.

The hearts of men are as deep as the oceans themselves, they are sallow in parts with depths no one knows but they themselves in others. What you find on its surface pales comparison to its depths and its ironic that the demons that dwell in its seas always come to top eventually



Somethings are best left buried but when other fish in the sea catch interest... well then you have a problem because then your either eaten or see the light at the surface and its not always a small task to see clearly which one is better.