Feeling hopeless (trigger warning - suicide)

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Hello again. It is nice to hear from you again, and I am happy that you had a good time on your trip to Chicago. I am sorry for the late reply.



I am sorry that you are feeling depressed again. I understand how you feel because I have felt the same way after getting home from a fun trip. My guess for why this happens, and I could be wrong, is because your time away gave you something to make you feel happy about & get excited for, and now that it is all over, you have to go back to your normal life, where all of your problems & obligations are. At least, that has been my personal experience. My late mother also used to have the same reaction to coming home from a fun trip. The memories of these kind of special occasions are hard for me, since they are in the past, and they are reminders of better days.



Has your self-harm habit improved at all? Are your medications helpful for you in any way? Do you have an appointment scheduled with your therapist?



I still hope that things will get better for you, and that you will find a new job & your own place to live. I am confident that it will happen eventually. We just need to get thru these dark days.



300 big dragon hugs.

Yes, I know what it feels like to have some kind of distraction to your problems. These days, I am also struggling with thinking about the past, when I was not so depressed & I was feeling truly happy. It is never a fun feeling.



I get worried about you when you hurt yourself. I always think there were be one single injury you cause yourself that will be fatal, and I would be very sad if you were gone; I really enjoy writing to you & giving you advice. I understand that it takes time to find the right medication for depression, but this therapist does not seem very good. Have you considered finding a new doctor?



It is not easy to find a job, and you seem to have tried everything possible. Before I got my job, I spent every day just looking for different jobs, and then applying for them, only to be forgotten about & never hearing back from any of them. I even had someone come to my house & try to help me with my job search, but it took a long time. I eventually found my job, and I believe that it will happen to you eventually.



I am still here for you. Big hugs.

I would switch psychiatrist fast, he isn't even telling why he is prescribing the medications to you, if he's going to do that he might as well just take a hand full and shove them down peoples mouths! (If a doctor ever does that please report them!)

I don't know whether or not psychiatrist are suppose to spend more time than that or not I think it might depend on the person. I do know that they are suppose to tell you what a medication does and tell you why you are suppose to take it!

Just because you don't think a pinprick to a major artery can't kill doesn't mean it won't. Have you talked to your therapist about the sudden depression?

Hello Dragons, just come to say hi really. I will say I do find it strange that your therapist was concentrating on job stuff instead of the depression since being depressed would make it much harder to get a job. Hopefully your therapist will see that and concentrate more on the depression.

Hey, in Sims 4 how is the veterinarian job going? Did you get it yet? Got 20 in any combination of dogs/cats living in your house?

Hello again. I am sorry that your therapist has not been helpful for you. Do you have an appointment scheduled for your new therapist yet?



It sort of makes sense that major depression is part of the problem with finding a job, since when you are depressed, you lose interest in working & finding a job. Maybe it is good that you are focusing on treating your depression before getting a job.



I have a story I wanted to share with you. Last week, on New Years Eve, I got together with friends, who also have Asperger's syndrome, for a day out at a park, and I saw someone from my past who is now doing very poorly. It was one of my old classmates from elementary & high school, who I had not seen since 2003. I barely recognised her when I first saw her again; she was never attractive back when we went to school together, but she looks terrible today. She is unemployed & addicted to drugs. She has body odour & does not bathe or groom herself. She was wearing old, dirty, ratty clothes. She has scars & burn marks all over her body. Her speech is slurred & incoherent.



Her boyfriend came with us on the outing, and he was living with her, but he uses cannabis & lives somewhere with a lot of roommates. My friend, who I really like, contacted me this weekend, and told me that she could not stay with him any more, and she had no place to go. My friend wanted me to try & help, but said that we could not really co anything for her. Since I had not seen my classmate since 2003, I do not know anything about her, and I do not know if she has any family or relatives. I found out two days ago that she is staying with a friend for now. The only reason why she came with us on New Years Eve was because the boyfriend called the police on her for causing a domestic disturbance; she was destroying everything in his house, and she was very violent & suicidal. He did not trust her to be home alone because of what she might do if she was there by herself.



I could not help but pity her for all of her problems, but in reality, she brought it on herself, and there is nothing I can do to help her.



The moral of my story is that there are some people who are in even worse situations that what you & I are in. I hope nothing like it ever happens to either you or me.



Good luck with your new therapist. 300 big dragon hugs.

I realized today that nowadays, when I have a meltdown, I also have very intense suicidal thoughts. I find this frightening because when I'm having a meltdown is also when I'm most likely to do things impulsively, including self-harm. I'm not sure what I can do about it, though.

What kinds of things trigger a meltdown for you?

You may find a pattern.

Whenever you have a meltdown, one thing you could do, which may be difficult, but it is still worth attempting, is to restrain yourself whenever you are about to do anything harmful. You could try to think of something helpful which could calm you down. It has helped me before.



Another thought I had, which could be helpful, is to use a social media service. I have heard that there are groups for people who are having problems, and there are also groups for people looking for jobs or their own place to live. I do not have very much experience with them, but it may be something you could look in to.



I can only partially recommend social media services like Face Book & Twitter because I do not really think they are right for every one. I had a Face Book account for 2 years, but I seldom used it, and I permanently deleted it 3 months ago. I did not like it because I am an extremely private person, and I did not want people bothering me or trying to contact me. I also did not find it interesting at all, and I do not understand why people like it so much. I have also heard about people getting addicted to the services, using them all the time. There are also reports of people being stalked on those services. Wrong Planet is the only web site I post any messages on.



I am still here for you on here if you are uncomfortable with those suggestions. 300 big hugs.