02 Oct 2018, 7:18 pm
04 Oct 2018, 2:54 pm
04 Oct 2018, 7:18 pm
04 Oct 2018, 7:44 pm
05 Oct 2018, 6:22 am
...First. Claradoon, I have only two teeth 
. This was set in motion as long as the Eighties, when institutional people I was forced to deal with decided to ignore my dental problems and say I was faking . There was some improvement in the 90s, but then, in San Francisco, an agency I was forced to deal with would not make further dental appointments for me because. and I am not kidding, they wanted me to pick up their office phone first before they would because they wanted me, and this is s quote. to " get involved with my treatment " by picking up their office phone before they did. La-la Miss Nancy game BS. It was their office phone, not mine. and I would " get involved in my treatment " by going to my appointment)d. not by picking up their office phone! 
They were my " superiors ', I wouldn't barge into their office phone. and I don't know how to go through social work bureaucracy to make an appointment! 
Who would I even speak to? But, they were so into playing the role of the noble social worker in their little TV movie that they wouldn't make medical appointments for me 
. This same agency would push me around and " lost " things of mine I entrusted to them.
The people who express their hatred for Mr here just burst in my lines even after saying ' I give up up on you. I'm not coming back. " - I wish you would. How can I miss you if you won"t go away? - But then they come back, and scream at me some more, and " demand ' I answer this or that question immediately .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Oct 2018, 7:11 am
...More...I guess I let it slip, I did take the " go to Patterson " offer. Briefly, it did not work out, though I went up in good faith assuming that it would. I put little if anything up when it was current, I was busy, the extreme inadequacies , as ever, of my equipment and my degree of knowledge got in the way, and I may have been banned part of the time . I now in a cheap motel elsewhere in the county waiting for the money to come in so I can leave - probably back to the Cruz, unless an extreme Hail Mary Pass of room possibility comes through. which it probably won't. One factor making this not suitable is that, with no standard public transportation around. I depended here on fire owner of the place for transportation - for which he squeezes my balls dry financially, for the carting and errands from Santa Cruz to up here he changed me $100 - cash - for a local shopping trip for quite literally less than two miles round trip - 0.7 miles each way. IIRC, according to my phone - and charged me $58 co-pay for my latest prescription of medical pills - It was $0 in Santa Cruz .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Oct 2018, 7:34 am
...I was charged $26 for the lesser than two miles shopping trip. allow me to correct that, $109 for carting, etc. up here, and $58 co-pay for the prescription ($0 in SC).
Now. I realize that the quinine gallery hete , those eho hate me so, will hate me so.eill burst in say " That's right! And that's what you should pay! " Between them., they me to have no possessions - because that makes me a " hoarder ' if I do keep anything, they want me to not even have this phone, and be shut up in an institution. Nothing else will satisfy them.
I no longer talk about want help with my HS transcript s herr - Someone DID offer some help 
but others. who maybe had the good luck of having a nice, cooperative. HS records person and situation, whereas I didn't , hate me for asking for (non-material) help with them...and now that it's off the table, they hate me for taking that away from them . 
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Oct 2018, 7:57 am
...Then there was the person how announced how he would rub his hands together and chicken with glee if he heard that the pictures from Bruh had been burned up. For so many years I have had NOTHING WHATSOEVER in the way of pictures of me when I was younger, and my folks, and the places I used to live - none whatsoever. Since prior to 9/11. I haven't had the combined space and stability to have the things from Bruh sent to me . I thought I would in Patterson.
In discussing an earlier post, ICNH said that is was " upbeat ". I was trying to go through justification for Mr to go to go to cc than uni, what it could get me in knowledge and credentials to possibly get paid employment - I certainly have no point-to-able skills that anyone would pay me for now - It seems?? that by " upbeat " he meant. as I think I acknowledged problems I might havr - that he felt " upbeat ' was " admitting that I cannot go '.
I WOULD like to, maybe, be in an atmosphere where I could disk up information, and read, and discuss things. and be encouraged in it. rather having to srmi-hide it and depreciate myself for it . And you can put 201 more " crying " emoticons after that.
And of course, there's the fact that I'm just a piece of raped meat, and always will be .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Oct 2018, 7:59 am
...Have a nice day .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Oct 2018, 9:53 am
05 Oct 2018, 1:16 pm
05 Oct 2018, 6:50 pm
, as ever, of my equipment and my degree of knowledge got in the way, and I may have been banned part of the time . I now in a cheap motel elsewhere in the county waiting for the money to come in so I can leave - probably back to the Cruz, unless an extreme Hail Mary Pass of room possibility comes through. which it probably won't. One factor making this not suitable is that, with no standard public transportation around. I depended here on fire owner of the place for transportation - for which he squeezes my balls dry financially, for the carting and errands from Santa Cruz to up here he changed me $100 - cash - for a local shopping trip for quite literally less than two miles round trip - 0.7 miles each way. IIRC, according to my phone - and charged me $58 co-pay for my latest prescription of medical pills - It was $0 in Santa Cruz .Now. I realize that the quinine gallery hete
, those eho hate me so, will hate me so.eill burst in say " That's right! And that's what you should pay! " Between them., they me to have no possessions - because that makes me a " hoarder ' if I do keep anything, they want me to not even have this phone, and be shut up in an institution. Nothing else will satisfy them.I no longer talk about want help with my HS transcript s herr - Someone DID offer some help
but others. who maybe had the good luck of having a nice, cooperative. HS records person and situation, whereas I didn't , hate me for asking for (non-material) help with them...and now that it's off the table, they hate me for taking that away from them . . if he heard that the pictures from Bruh had been burned up. For so many years I have had NOTHING WHATSOEVER in the way of pictures of me when I was younger, and my folks, and the places I used to live - none whatsoever. Since prior to 9/11. I haven't had the combined space and stability to have the things from Bruh sent to me . I thought I would in Patterson.In discussing an earlier post, ICNH said that is was " upbeat ". I was trying to go through justification for Mr to go to go to cc than uni, what it could get me in knowledge and credentials to possibly get paid employment - I certainly have no point-to-able skills that anyone would pay me for now - It seems?? that by " upbeat " he meant. as I think I acknowledged problems I might havr - that he felt " upbeat ' was " admitting that I cannot go '.
I WOULD like to, maybe, be in an atmosphere where I could disk up information, and read, and discuss things. and be encouraged in it. rather having to srmi-hide it and depreciate myself for it
. And you can put 201 more " crying " emoticons after that.And of course, there's the fact that I'm just a piece of raped meat, and always will be
.Sorry to hear that. Hope things work out better. Hope no one here ever says such things to you again.
06 Oct 2018, 11:49 am
if he heard that the pictures from Bruh had been burned up. If you mean Goldfish, that is NOT what he said.
08 Oct 2018, 5:23 pm
. This was set in motion as long as the Eighties, when institutional people I was forced to deal with decided to ignore my dental problems and say I was faking . There was some improvement in the 90s, but then, in San Francisco, an agency I was forced to deal with would not make further dental appointments for me because. and I am not kidding, they wanted me to pick up their office phone first before they would because they wanted me, and this is s quote. to " get involved with my treatment " by picking up their office phone before they did. La-la Miss Nancy game BS. It was their office phone, not mine. and I would " get involved in my treatment " by going to my appointment)d. not by picking up their office phone! They were my " superiors ', I wouldn't barge into their office phone. and I don't know how to go through social work bureaucracy to make an appointment! Who would I even speak to? But, they were so into playing the role of the noble social worker in their little TV movie that they wouldn't make medical appointments for me . This same agency would push me around and " lost " things of mine I entrusted to them.The people who express their hatred for Mr here
just burst in my lines even after saying ' I give up up on you. I'm not coming back. " - I wish you would. How can I miss you if you won"t go away? - But then they come back, and scream at me some more, and " demand ' I answer this or that question immediately .By this do you mean that your teeth rotted out because you didn't want to make dental appointments for yourself, because that is what it sounds like.
And your opinion of being a passive patient is wrong, you do have to take an active role in any major medical treatment you get.
08 Oct 2018, 5:45 pm
. By this do you mean that your teeth rotted out because you didn't want to make dental appointments for yourself, because that is what it sounds like.
And your opinion of being a passive patient is wrong, you do have to take an active role in any major medical treatment you get.
No, he is answering my claim to have less teeth than he does.
And as for your opinions about "passive patient" - try being received with the label "Psychiatric" - there is nothing active for the patient at all. I hope you don't find that out personally but am annoyed at how insensitive your lack of experience makes you seem. Just try asserting your rights - or even keeping your own comb! - in a Psych Ward.
13 Oct 2018, 1:39 pm
...Thank you, Clara. The interaction with the agency that made a big deal about picking up the phone wasn't psychiatric but the Eighties thing that was the root of the teeth problems was psychiatric .
I should point out that, the phone/s of those people who made a big f*****g thing about me picking up the phone first were these old-type office phones with all the buttons on them that I suppose might be no longer used very much - Would younger people even remember them 
? They were pretty complex to get an outside line on, certainly for me .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
