scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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7.
Not raining today so going to get out and do things.

-10

Going to see the psychiatrist at 3pm (GMT) for my medication review.

4. I got a new book (and like four bijillion hours of free time tonight, although I'm not sure if I'm allowed to leave the dorms), and I stayed entirely awake through the last lecture (not that I had a choice, seeing that I was in the front row...), and this thing is almost (ie, three days) over. On the downside, I managed to do something to my shoulder; I have no idea what, just that it hurts quite a lot.

5.
A little lonely.
The man I have felt this strange unconditional love, obsession, and connection to for almost 15 months now, has moved and now, instead of being an hour of walking away, is living literally around the corner.
It is frustrating that he still will not have anything to do with me, but I am glad he is somewhere safer now since he got a lot of issues where he was due to his eccentricity. That is the sweet part of the bittersweet. He is in a happier place.
And that alone makes me a little happy.
But still... it would be so nice if instead of getting nasty every time someone brings up that I like him, he might try to talk a little and realise I am just another human being, doing the best I can in the only way I know how

Other than that, I am ok. Housing will be paying my full rent. I have net tonight which is a relief and I got some nice hippyish knitted babydoll jacket things

4.

Far more tired than I should be and feeling a little world-weary.

-3 Not so good

5.
Raining...again.
I loved being in the Uk this time last year.
Now I hate being in the Uk lol.
Going to friend tonight to pass some time.
First proper friend I have had in years. See how long it lasts.

8. I'm glad that I'm strong minded and not going to let anything get in the way of what I want.

5. One of the people in my head is going on trial tonight. He would be in much better shape if he didn't ruthlessly hunt down the prosecutors best friend and only ally for the exact same thing a couple months back. The afformentioned friend is still in jail, serving a sentence which is now universally regarded as unfair, and to balance out the universe, he's probably going to get the same sentence. This could have all been happily avoided, the prosecutor mentions, if his friends sentence had been shortened, but now the prosecutor is on a vendetta to regain former glory. This is all fascinating as hell to watch, the defense attourney(the person about to go on trial isn't capable of defense; he's not eloquent enough) is having a heart attack trying to figure out how to make this go away, and everyone else is just havign fun predicting results.

+10

29 days from today, I am leaving the craphole called Houston in order to go to college.

Tim

7. We are at a fevered pitch here. The defense attourney tried to offer a deal to release the prosecutors friend from jail in return for charges being dropped, but the prosecutor wanted to throw the accused in jail for six months, which was roughly the amount of time the friend was in jail. This is cold, hard retrobution; the prosecutor fully intends on redeeming his name after being forced through a shedload of adapting to a rapidly changing climate where he was entirely alone; the idea of the friend being thrown in jail was also partially to destroy the person who is now prosecuting, who was seen as a third wheel for quite some time, but has proven shockingly resiliant, and is now attempting to regain a position of former glory. The trial is coming soon, and my head is buzzing with a combination of excitement and terror. This is multi-personality living at it's finest!

5ish. It's almost over. One more day, two more meetings, and then I'm out of here.

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Very insecure and confused.