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Fickle_Pickle
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12 Aug 2009, 9:49 pm
ZEGH8578 wrote:
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
ZEGH8578 wrote:
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
ZEGH8578 wrote:
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
ZEGH8578 wrote:
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I think now I should just give up. After all, I am considered a freak among my family since I am right-handed and everyone else is a lefty. They are overly-logical left handed people while I am the intuitive righty. My older sister calls reffers to my intuition indirectly as "asspull". But now that I know it, it's their problem they're so desperate to bully and belittle me while they think they are doing something right. I can at least fall in love with a jerk/smartass because I learned to get sexual pleasure from being belittled by having it happen to me so much.
come on, why that attitude of defeat?
wat have anyone ACTUALLY done to defeat you? sticks and stones, you know?
your still fit for fight. i wish there was a way for you to move out. move out move out move out. seriously. move out
Well, no. I have no idea what "sticks and stones" means. Maybe no one has to try to defeat me, I just fail naturally.
And maybe I should give up because it just simply can't be done!
"sticks and stones may break my bones, but words may never hurt me" it sounds all soggy and emotional, thats why i like to limit it to "sticks and stones" :] i meant it as, your not defeated, untill someone actually physically injures you to pieces.
who's they?
and like... when :I
everyone on two legs gets a beating when your little, especially if your aspie
the latest serious asskicking i got i was 16
By "they" I always mean my family, no one else ever tries to hurt me. I thought last year was the last for me, but I got another severe one that made my eye swell up last month.
Anyway, I am now on Sam-E. I wonder what that will be the outcome of that. I hope I can prevent future beatings. I really want to take Judo lessons, then even if they are 100 lbs heavier than I am, I can flip them over.
:/
swollen eye? last month? wtf :/
isnt that... domestic abuse? :S call cops?
no wonder you are emotional :S
My brother would say "Domestic abuse?.. HA!!" My sister threatened to call the cops on me before she beat my eye. She said "They're WORSE than us!" I think it's about the same at my home as it is in prison. Just more privacy is the difference, as I feel the same way a prisoner does... loss of identity, feeling like I'm going to get the crap beaten out of me all the time. And no, I don't want to kick ass, I just want to literally flip them over, so they know they can't even get ANY attacks in me and they will be flipped on THEIR asses before they know what to do. My mom keeps repeating about me taking anger management classes ever since I was 7. Anger management will do absolutely NOTHING for me, as this rage is blind and aspergers-related. So I think I will need those pills they give to sedate people in mental institutions.
Fickle_Pickle
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15 Aug 2009, 2:22 pm
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Danielismyname wrote:
Stick an icepick in your amygdala (you'll have to learn up on psychosurgery if you wish to do it correctly). Should do the trick.
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I have a feeling everyone is joking me. They're not saying I should actually do something, they're just saying it hypothetically. They're laughing at how I take their ridiculous advice and I'm begging for instructions on how to carry it out and they give me more satiracal suggestions, then laugh some more. But hey
that's what I'm for! I'm a buttmonkey, my pain is your pleasure.but you ARE funny :]
you always come back to make your desperate posts as well. btw what do you mean find a slave master?
sometimes you sound a bit.... indiana-jones ish. you see very mission-oriented
Yes, I'm funny because I'm pitiful. I am a JOKE. I'm surprised trolls didn't find me and post an article about me on Encyclopedia Dramatica.
15 Aug 2009, 2:28 pm
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
ZEGH8578 wrote:
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
Danielismyname wrote:
Stick an icepick in your amygdala (you'll have to learn up on psychosurgery if you wish to do it correctly). Should do the trick.
...
I have a feeling everyone is joking me. They're not saying I should actually do something, they're just saying it hypothetically. They're laughing at how I take their ridiculous advice and I'm begging for instructions on how to carry it out and they give me more satiracal suggestions, then laugh some more. But hey
that's what I'm for! I'm a buttmonkey, my pain is your pleasure.but you ARE funny :]
you always come back to make your desperate posts as well. btw what do you mean find a slave master?
sometimes you sound a bit.... indiana-jones ish. you see very mission-oriented
Yes, I'm funny because I'm pitiful. I am a JOKE. I'm surprised trolls didn't find me and post an article about me on Encyclopedia Dramatica.a chick from a forum i was on almost a decade ago is still an entry in the urban dictionary i think
and no, your funny in the way you describe things. your witty ;]
your LIFE isnt any more a joke than most people here. what about me?
i sit in my room ALL. THE. TIME. day and night, monday to sunday, im in my room. i exit my room to buy food or weed.
my social service people gave me a pretend sortof job at the science museum the chillest job you can imagine 2 days a week, awesome people, and im allready failing and dissapointing everyone, i told my mother on the phone today that its going swell, and at the same time i imagined telling her lik like 2 days from now "im fired"
everything is hilariously tragical. we're in an aspie forum :]
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15 Aug 2009, 5:09 pm
ZEGH8578 wrote:
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
ZEGH8578 wrote:
Fickle_Pickle wrote:
Danielismyname wrote:
Stick an icepick in your amygdala (you'll have to learn up on psychosurgery if you wish to do it correctly). Should do the trick.
...
I have a feeling everyone is joking me. They're not saying I should actually do something, they're just saying it hypothetically. They're laughing at how I take their ridiculous advice and I'm begging for instructions on how to carry it out and they give me more satiracal suggestions, then laugh some more. But hey
that's what I'm for! I'm a buttmonkey, my pain is your pleasure.but you ARE funny :]
you always come back to make your desperate posts as well. btw what do you mean find a slave master?
sometimes you sound a bit.... indiana-jones ish. you see very mission-oriented
Yes, I'm funny because I'm pitiful. I am a JOKE. I'm surprised trolls didn't find me and post an article about me on Encyclopedia Dramatica.a chick from a forum i was on almost a decade ago is still an entry in the urban dictionary i think
and no, your funny in the way you describe things. your witty ;]
your LIFE isnt any more a joke than most people here. what about me?
i sit in my room ALL. THE. TIME. day and night, monday to sunday, im in my room. i exit my room to buy food or weed.
my social service people gave me a pretend sortof job at the science museum the chillest job you can imagine 2 days a week, awesome people, and im allready failing and dissapointing everyone, i told my mother on the phone today that its going swell, and at the same time i imagined telling her lik like 2 days from now "im fired"
everything is hilariously tragical. we're in an aspie forum :]
I know, but I just can't laugh. (I'm not cynical enough.)
15 Aug 2009, 8:23 pm
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16 Aug 2009, 4:12 am
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Are you noticing a pattern though? You focus on a problem and more pop up. When I was 18, I went on and on about little problems. Nobody wanted to talk to me, hell even now I have a tendency to go on about things. In the future, you'll want to have outlets.
It's kind of funny that you've spent this long trying your best not to care, because you'll have to care about not caring if you want it to work. I'd suggest an alternative; caring about a limited number of things (preferably under your control), in other words, be AS.
It's kind of funny that you've spent this long trying your best not to care, because you'll have to care about not caring if you want it to work. I'd suggest an alternative; caring about a limited number of things (preferably under your control), in other words, be AS.
Sadly, I can't get away with that.
I was hoping to not care under the circumstances of being cynical instead. But unfortunately, I'm a little slow due to AS, so I can't give cynical commentary all the time. So I am AS. I just care too much, that's all. I'm more intuition than logic and that makes me a freak.
16 Aug 2009, 6:33 am
Sorry if this doesn't sound like a lot of help, but (I don't know how, but I do know why), when I snapped a few years back, something in my brain just told me not to care anymore. Sure friends have come and gone that I've cared about, but now I've gotten to a point in my life where I just don't give a f**k about anyone outside what I call "Our Family". I've completely lost trust, and it takes a lot to build up trust with me. 
16 Aug 2009, 7:00 am
This maybe a little off topic but....nice f*****g sig Alternative!!
16 Aug 2009, 10:03 am
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This maybe a little off topic but....nice f***ing sig Alternative!!
lol. Thanks. It's from a song called "Out Of Step" by Minor Threat.
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