I am going to commit suicide. I have to do it

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Knives are messy and stabbing is gory. It also depends if you're like me and have a high tolerance towards physical pain.
In my days I've gotten all my fingers broken on one hand, broken my wrist, fell on a sharp stone edge that burrowed deep into my knee, I've fallen when snowboarding and destroyed my left shoulder, gotten in a fights had my nose broken x2 and my eye almost poked out.

Now, I've had the thought of suicide as well and my life hasn't been all that great, but there is no what so ever solution to ending it by killing yourself. It might sound as I speak of such an serious subject with ease and worryless respect as to killing one self.
But I see the act as very selfish, not thinking about others who will suffer from seeing a dead person they care about. Especially if you go train jumping or if you go bananas with a knife on yourself in school. It will solve nothing.
It is easy to destroy something and call it a day then building something for a lifetime.
I've had a girlfriend and if it's that you're worried about and being alone, I say no big deal. I feel way better without a girlfriend then when i had one. I think you feel alone and there is no one around to understand you, that's the issue.
A girlfriend would only hasten your decision to end it, in my opinion especially if you meet the wrong one.
If i would ponder and moan and hurt (as i ones did) over every single failure and restriction that I have ever experienced in my life and let that get to me every time, I would have ended it 10 times by now.

Bottom line is that you're not the only one feeling this way and you're certainly NOT alone in your position and the way you feel, many people who tried to end it have said that they were glad it didn't work because it does get better after.

Life is a roller coaster, not only for us Aspies but for NTs as well we just have alot more to deal with but with every obstacle met we grow stronger. I know I have though.

It would be cool is there was a machine that could exchange lives and feelings with others, THEN you would see what real pain and suffering is.

When I was about your age I shook hands with real nasty feelings and thoughts, I later realized I wasn't thinking clearly and it does get better, but no post or words can uplift you but yourself.

We can only try to help.

why not volunteer with some charity organisation for instance i know there are boats full of people going to africa to help out there, if you are really at the end of your life you might as well travel the world before you go, who knows you might even decide to hang around longer.

you want to kill yourself where you will get attention ?.
you seem to want to inflict the "agony" of seeing your demise upon other people.

do you want them to cry? do you want them to search their souls forlornly for the rest of their lives as to why you did it? do you want people to anguish over the cessation of your existence?

well a few months after you die, most everyone is over it, and they continue to have their lives spent without you in it. no one who is mentally robust is crippled for life at the loss of the life of someone they knew.

it is for certain that your influence in the lives of those you love will be zero after they get over the reality that you died.

stay and be.
die naturally when you are old.
you do not lose much if you are 100 and just desperately want to go to sleep forever.

but at this time you have a human body (that is not spent) in your control and,... well i do not know, but it is an enormous gift to be placed is the control of (and own) a living human body (your one) with 100 billion brain cells to see with. you will never get the chance again, as everyone is astronomically lucky to be born into their life.

so if you cut it all now, then you may have to wait longer than forever to ever live again.

Please, please don't do it. You are far too young and bright to do something like that. Life for me, when I dropped out of college the first time, I hit an all time low on that, being put in a group home, and I felt like crap. I will pray for you and hope that you get the help you truly deserve. *hugs*

Suicide, the one word you can't say in public without fear of arousing trouble. If there's one thing I've learned its that you have a choice to live or die. Every moment you spend living is a choice. Life throws you hurdles at every step of your life. Some hurdles are reasonable and some are impossible. The one thing you need to understand is that you don't have to jump any of them.

I'm not going to feed you the same BS that you've probably already heard a thousands times, that life gets better and these feelings just magically disappear. It does however get easier as time goes on. There is light at the end of the tunnel even if you can't see it. Just try to feel it. I know it might not mean much but I've been there. I still am there. People can place huge expectations on you and you can place even larger ones on yourself. Just hang in there, every moment you spend living is a triumph, every breathe you take is a gift.

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Im really sorry you're feeling this way.

I can't give advice or i'd take my own, but you aren't alone. And there are people to help... even strangers? Have you been to a crisis wesite in your area? I'm going to write to one tonight.

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Hey [edited for content by sinsboldly] stop making stupid bloody suggestions, ffs MODERATORS THIS IS THE SORT OF THING THAT YOU SHOULD BE PAYING YOUR BLOODY ATTENTION TO FOR GODS SAKE. Anyway mate don't do it, you just need a better way but you won't find it hear. Too many of these people at Wrongplanet are incredibily heartless, who lack any compassion or anything that makes them.... human. Don't do it, send me a message, I may be able to help you, but I will only do this in private terms, I don't need these fools to be on my case. If want it, pst me.

These thoughts of suicide seem to be a common theme around here, the thought has crossed my mind more then a few times this month, I am afraid I may just do it, but who would take care of my pets, or how long would it take before someone found my body.
I feel the need to check myself in to the psychiatric ward before I start hurting myself worse.

Mostly because everyone here is encouraging each other to off ones self. It's really stupid and not one of these damn moderators is doing a damn thing about it. Anyway don't do it, not worth it.

Here is something that might cheer you up.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6rtNcaQvFvI[/youtube]

what good is it to scream for a moderator in the thread that needs attention? The moderators can't read every post on this site, we depend on people bringing it to the moderators attention. This is done by going to WrongPlanet.net discussion thread and posting on the 'Moderators Attention Thread'.

otherwise you are spitting into the wind.

Merle
Moderator

I hope I die most of the time, and I'm crying as I write this. I can't stand being a man anymore. I just wish I had the courage to kill myself.

I am feeling much better than I did a couple weeks ago when I first made this thread. I'm not 100% but am doing much better. I've come to the realization that suicide would be too painful to do anyways; and I've come to realize that live is worth living after all. I need to find something I am passionate about and work hard at that to give my life meaning. There are people who suffer from terrible diseases, yet they still find a way to live day to day. It would be selfish of me to kill myself over a biochemical imbalance and it would devestate my family.

However, I will probably fall back into the slumps again in the near future, as that's a problem I have faced for many years - periodic depression. I will probably start another thread in the future, but for now I'm doing better. Christmas is coming up and I will be getting time off school, so there won;'t be much stress for a couple of weeks. Thanks all for posting.

Well done, good to have you around.