I Got Jailed Again!

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*OBVIOUSLY* yes, as unless they filtered me out, they'd have gotten them. Do you see what I mean? Deceitful!

Peter, have you ever reached out to a psychiatrist before? If so, how did it go? I think you've got some issues here including narcissism and paranoia. I normally wouldn't be so blunt, but I think you are on a dangerous path. And I'm not saying you're "crazy." Mental disorders are complex and multi-layered. I don't think you can cope without getting some help about these issues. To do so does not make you weak, any information you gather and help you get, make you stronger.

Thinking about being the snooker champion would probably be most useful in this instance.

Start anew.....that's the only way this will be resolved.

Well, I won't lie to you, peeps. If I furthered my support with this particular agency, it could mean they may screw me again (which is not exactly paranoia knowing they legitimately lied in the past), and most importantly, I'll act uptight about not seeing Joanna and Sara. Well, I just don't think it'll be very healthy or rewarding, unless we all tried very, very hard to get me motivated to do something special with my life.

It made me feel rather jealous watching this brief video. You can see Sara in it. That guy is her boyfriend and she's the gal doing the punches at the end. Imagine all the similarly great stuff we could have done, if not for all the legal crap we ended up involved in.



Sure, Number 6 isn't just a forum for the outreach workers, so there are others apart from them that go there. But because it is still Autism Initiatives related, it made me feel a bit strange and low when I left there today.

As it would.

Dude, you're stalking her again. Seriously, if you don't reach out to the doctors you will end up in trouble. And what is with your attachment to this clinic? It is not the whole world.

Yes, I know it isn't the only place on Earth. Like you keep saying. However, I had been with that company for years and so I knew a lot of people who I kind of got very attached to. Right now, I am in financial troubles, have *NO* support whatsoever, feel like crap, and with a week to go before court, it ain't much fun having no cash on me.

Asda disabled my online account as they could not take the payment for the shopping I ordered which they delivered just the same and on top of that, my mother wants £100 back, plus there's even more money for to get a new mattress, as I currently sleep on a bed that folds out from a chair. My family's house is clammy, cluttered and quite frankly, depressing. We don't have a shower either so the dust just sticks to my skin. It's too hot for a bath. Baths don't get you very clean anyways and showers are quicker. I've got tons of movies I have not seen, but I cannot be bothered sitting among a mess to watch anything.

Stress! Stress! And more stress!

Have you considered employment programs? If they have them where you live. I took one here in Kingston and I was able to get a cleaning job.

I'm not sure. I have bad anxiety. I last worked in 2006 and I was diagnosed with PDD-NOS the following year, but I was in college doing Performing Arts for a few good years up until 2010. Then all this bull had to happen with Sara and Joanna which has really messed everything up inside my head. That is not counting all the other disasters from before, like with Laura, my so-called ex-girlfriend.

My anxiety needs to be treated before I can do anything. When I go into Tesco at night, I get panicky type feelings which while irrational in my view, hold me back, and I want to pay up super fast and get out of the shop, which is what somebody with agoraphobia may be feeling like being around too many people. I'm not sure why I feel like this, as I am just doing an ordinary task.

I've joined an extras casting group called Universal Extras which does not have any jobs worth applying for at the moment. There are jobs where you can play a main role as opposed to being just background talent. They had jobs for extras ages ago however, but my photos got declined for a while due to not meeting the requirements, so the listings expired by the time I got the joining fee and the pictures processed.

Due to the curfew thing right now, I am not meant to go out after 9 o'clock to buy snacks or do anything, in case the pigs catch me. They've been back and forth at times to make sure I am where I should be. They don't tell me when they are coming, of course. My curfew is 9 PM to 6 in the morning.

One morning very early, the door went bang, bang. It was the cops, but we were all too tired to answer it. They need to check that I'm in, then they bugger off.

My sister knows a lot of people that go to Number 6 and she typically has her birthday celebration just after her birthday as she is too busy during the week, and she told me a female friend is interested in getting to know me. But I need a wash, decent clothes, a degree of confidence and some money. First impressions count.

I think this is all just way too much hassle.

You could get a job even with that curfew. Are there any employment programs with social services.

And no kidding. Life is nothing but hassle. Tbh, the only way I'm able to keep going is because of a cocktail of medications. Truly, this world feels so empty to me.

Peter

This clinic and these two women f****d on you as you say. So, why are you still trying to have a relationship with any of them. Dude, if it was me I would ditch them, metaphorically flip them the bird, vent your crap on here, grab a beer,smoke some chronic, and move the f**k on. You're letting these two skanks and a**holes rule your life. And for what? So, you can keep ending up in prison with two pedophiles. No, f**k that. Move on with your life, ditch the skanks and a**holes, chill out on here, argue with us on various topics and move the f**k on. You don't need the b*****s or the a**holes. Don't let them define who you are or your life.

Try to follow Androbot's advice about employment if you can.

Firstly, I need a new flat as living under Mummy and Daddy's roof ain't gonna be very good for me.

Trust me, their house is a dumping ground. It always has been. Worthless shite just lies around in every room doing nothing, yet they don't want to part with this crap. Every surface is cluttered with junk. There is no 'sense of organization' at all. My flat was never like this, support workers assisting me to maintain it or not. I'd make sure everything was tidy and easily accessed. The only thing I needed help with was washing the dishes and airing out the rooms to freshen up the place. That flat was very cold in the winter however, but at least it was all arranged out how I liked it.

All my stuff is crammed into the one room just now. I'm not even supposed to put my stuff elsewhere, like in the halls as my parents get worried that the social workers will show up to check on my nephew. Oh, besides myself, my sister is going through hell to do with her kids, one of which she never gets to see now. They would not be happy if they seen all my 'X' rated horror films laying in boxes, would they?

So, yeah. It's a pretty hectic time of things. And with no support or money, that's shite as well. I've still not got my bank card or my Young Scot card replaced, as the G4S people did not bring my items to court and I have anxiety when it comes to using public transport. I'd been remanded in Barlinnie.

...Barlinnie is where you did the three months or the earlier term ? I do recall you applying the phrase " committed " and perhaps not " remanded " to the three months' porridge .
You're still " young " at 28 ????????? !





PeterHoping44"]Firstly, I need a new flat as living under Mummy and Daddy's roof ain't gonna be very good for me.

Trust me, their house is a dumping ground. It always has been. Worthless shite just lies around in every room doing nothing, yet they don't want to part with this crap. Every surface is cluttered with junk. There is no 'sense of organization' at all. My flat was never like this, support workers assisting me to maintain it or not. I'd make sure everything was tidy and easily accessed. The only thing I needed help with was washing the dishes and airing out the rooms to freshen up the place. That flat was very cold in the winter however, but at least it was all arranged out how I liked it.

All my stuff is crammed into the one room just now. I'm not even supposed to put my stuff elsewhere, like in the halls as my parents get worried that the social workers will show up to check on my nephew. Oh, besides myself, my sister is going through hell to do with her kids, one of which she never gets to see now. They would not be happy if they seen all my 'X' rated horror films laying in boxes, would they?

So, yeah. It's a pretty hectic time of things. And with no support or money, that's shite as well. I've still not got my bank card or my Young Scot card replaced, as the G4S people did not bring my items to court and I have anxiety when it comes to using public transport. I'd been remanded in Barlinnie. [/quote]

Being fully committed is the same thing as being remanded, only you can't get bail. If you were just remanded and went up to court a few weeks later, they could release you, but you have to stay in jail on a full committal. It's often for 110 days or more. I'm not sure why I got released, but I think there's a loophole where they can bail you to get a court report from a social worker. It means you have to be up again in 2-3 weeks. I'm not sure, but I'd been in jail for like 13 weeks.

...Thank you , you mean the recent time that inspired this post , right ???????????

...Peter , have you tried this site ?
http://www.prisontalk.com/

Dude, at least have the decency to remove email and physical addresses from your obsessively pissed off posts.