What keeps you from committing suicide?

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Ikea brand knives. They really weren't designed for sliting throats

I'm getting there too. I hate these f*****g rednecks that are all over this town!

Which brings me to my point, I cannot express enough that my greatest motivation for living is to get out of here as soon as possible. The idea of staying here makes me want to commit suicide.

I'm super-jealous. This thread is completely pointless.


Anyways, I can pretend to be something I'm not on a website like Gaia or Second Life.

I got a new reason not to commit suicide. Knowing that other people are so miserable that they feel like it and their misery makes me happy.

Also, I don't have the guts to kill myself.

What keeps me going is that I have plenty of people to pick on and manipulate, so I see how making others miserable would make you happy.

All the stuff that I have yet to learn.

i guess for me it is because i am a strong person my psychologisit told me that aspies have a high suicide rate I can understand why with the amount of isolation, depression, misunderstanding and ignorance we have to face every day. I had it only yesterday (read Family Issues post looking for advice too). I have thought about suicide a lot but it is only thoughts so far nothing else I have self hamred but not because i wanted to kill myself. I had a very lonely childhood and at 29 still live a lonely life I suspect it will always be like that.

The barrier between life and death.

A promise, and I own a lot of stuff that jerks would try and claim as theirs if I was gone.

Once those two are out of the way (in that order), I'm done.

Fantom: Just curious, if you have an "estate" of any sort of value, why is moving out of your rotten town not an option immediately? Moving to a place where people are more rational and/or friendly can be a big help psychologically and in the date-o-sphere. It's worth prioritizing. It's also a gamble better than suicide.

Which brings me to my larger point: if you're in a terrible place, it seems to me that any major change, gamble, risk, etc. is worth trying before suicide. If you're ready to lose your life, you have nothing to lose by trying something crazy that has a chance of making your life worth living. The worst that could happen is...you die. But you were ready to do that yourself anyway.
Kind of a pragmatist's approach, I know. But it seems logical to me, and that's what I've done instead of suicide. I took some interesting risks and had some interesting experiences. The fact that suicide is always available to me to end suffering has actually eased the suffering itself. I can always permanently step off this planet, but before I do I might as well try to make something out of this life. And I am starting to get somewhere at age 38. So for now I've lost interest in offing myself.

Just don't make your crazy gamble some sort of shooting rampage. Unfortunately that's what a lot of those rampage killers were thinking: before I kill myself, I can always go nuts and take a bunch of people with me. Not the correct way of interpreting the advice I offer above.

^ The thing that is keeping me here is college. Once I graduate and move on to a university I'll wave bye-bye to this God forsaken place.

But yeah, I see what you are saying. I'm trying to find ways of enjoying myself, accepting being alone and being happy about it. "Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns has a whole chapter about this and I intend to follow through on it. I'm trying to adopt a "f**k relationships, love, and dating" mentality and though it's kind of hard after obsessing about it for almost 10 years, I'll try.

Though thinking like that is making living here a little bit easier, I still intend to get out of here. I would like to get my part of the estate sold and out of the way before I move. I'd much rather risk having a hard time finding and buying land somewhere else then keeping what I have and staying here.

At my lowest points, the thing that kept me going was knowing that I'd be cheating and hurting the people who raised me, as well as the rest of my family and a few friends. I also knew from past experiences that my low points are not permanent, as much as they may feel that way. Physical pain never entered the equation as I personally own 11 different firearms. Pretty efficient 'Abort Mission' switches I'm sure. Still, there was always the fear of the unknown.

Since my really low points, I've met a girl who I'm deeply in love with, and she is a perfect reason to be alive. I've even been doing better in my school work now that I have a reason to move forward with life. I even quit my antidepressants and I'm doing better than I was while on them. Aspergers' is a weird creature though, and because the quality of life is not linear, I'm sure there are more rough times ahead. But I've been shown that good things happen if you stick it out and be patient. Try to keep moving forward. It's the hardest thing to do, but it's worth it.

Do these song lyrics from Pete Townsend touch any other Aspies in their intellect and Aspie recognition.

It's hard - It's very very very very hard - so hard

Anyone can do anything if they hold the right card
So I'm thinking about my life now
I'm thinking very hard
Deal me another hand Lord, this one's very hard

My friends / love....

It's always good to have a world of your own.

That's why I believe creativity should be encouraged rather than discouraged.

Always helps to keep things in check and balance plus it's good way to escape when you're unable to be the true you in the real world.

Knowing that I can't come back from death. Otherwise I would totally do it just to see what the after life is like. I imagine a lot of people would too. It would answer a lot of questions and possibly prove or disprove some religions if not all of them.