Joined: 4 Jan 2020 Gender: Female Posts: 743 Location: A basement office with no heat or windows
23 Jan 2020, 1:31 pm
I don't know if this is a "rant" but I need to really get this off of my chest...
I had to do something difficult socially today involving someone who was consistently excluding me from groups and making me feel terrible and alone and it was hard but I feel better after doing it. It's hard to explain the whole situation but I think I was being taken advantage of and I needed to stand up for myself and gracefully distance myself without cutting myself off from everybody I know (This is all online to clarify and related to a few different chat groups on an app). I just hope I didn't mess up so that's a concern but overall, I probably did what is best for me in the long run. I know I was polite and deep down, I know I didn't do anything wrong but I of course still feel like I did. I wish social situations could be easier for me and I'm super lonely but trying to socialize is so exhausting and I hate that.
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Joined: 28 Nov 2016 Age: 49 Gender: Male Posts: 3,465 Location: Sagittarius A
25 Jan 2020, 2:03 am
I imagine most people just see a reckless jerk. All I know is I have never felt more alive other than when teetering on the brink of total annihilation and I wish I could bottle the thrilling feeling so others could experience it. I know it's a wildly unpopular opinion.
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Joined: 23 Feb 2010 Gender: Female Posts: 26,492 Location: UK
26 Jan 2020, 2:58 pm
It's so annoying that I can't find any information on my very first school I went to back in the 1990s. It was closed down in 2002 and has been knocked down and apartment buildings were built in it's place.
But that school had a lot of interesting history connected to it, and any trace of the school has been completely wiped off the internet. It was built in the 1800s and had a somewhat creepy vibe that I couldn't quite put my finger on even as a little kid. But lots of generations that grew up in the area has memories of the place, and it's a shame to have everything about it completely wiped off the internet like it never existed. I bet the people living in the new apartments now have no idea there was once a vintage school there.
The school just fascinates me and I wish there was a way I could find lots of historical information on it, and also for a bit of nostalgia.
Joined: 27 Oct 2014 Age: 41 Gender: Non-binary Posts: 34,202 Location: Right over your left shoulder
26 Jan 2020, 3:12 pm
blackicmenace wrote:
I imagine most people just see a reckless jerk. All I know is I have never felt more alive other than when teetering on the brink of total annihilation and I wish I could bottle the thrilling feeling so others could experience it. I know it's a wildly unpopular opinion.
The feeling is relatable, even if no one else gets it.
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Dear friend just because you don't know i am autistic have ocd, anxiety and god knows what else doesn't give you the right to trivialize my problems! Surprise, people don't tell you everything about them especailly if it threatens their mental wellbeing! There are disabled people in the world!! ! What a surprise!! !!
Joined: 23 Feb 2010 Gender: Female Posts: 26,492 Location: UK
28 Jan 2020, 1:10 pm
NT plays a practical joke on an Aspie who has a phobia of spiders, by throwing a fake spider down her back. The Aspie jumps and screams, and feels upset. The Aspie gets lectured: "They were only joking around and it was a funny joke, you need a sense of humour."
Aspie plays a practical joke on an NT who has a phobia of spiders, by throwing a fake spider down her back. The NT jumps and screams, and feels upset. The Aspie gets lectured: "That wasnt very nice, the person is afraid of spiders, how do you think that made them feel, joke or no joke, it wasn't funny."
Joined: 23 Feb 2010 Gender: Female Posts: 26,492 Location: UK
28 Jan 2020, 1:18 pm
I can think of another one.
Aspie child wants to be friends with a certain classmate and expresses it by following the NT child around the playground, but the NT doesn't want to be friends with her and tells a teacher. The Aspie gets a lecture: "This child doesn't want to be friends with you, please never follow her around again, it is rude and creepy."
NT child wants to be friends with a certain classmate and expresses it by following the Aspie child around the playground, but the Aspie doesn't want to be friends with her and tells a teacher. The Aspie gets a lecture: "This child is following you because she wants to be friends with you, you are rude to ignore her, how do you think she feels when you are ignoring her?"
Joined: 19 Dec 2017 Age: 35 Gender: Female Posts: 5,793
28 Jan 2020, 2:41 pm
I am sick of Canada everything is so isolated Jeddah is like one big family Canadians are so uptight and expect everyone to be able to do things independently and don't know how to be easygoing
why cant i meld them both together to get the perfect blend of intelligent practices and activities and educated people and educated attitudes + loving and kind and fun n relaxed attitude.
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Joined: 19 Dec 2017 Age: 35 Gender: Female Posts: 5,793
28 Jan 2020, 2:46 pm
I wish Lois could be my permanent person to help instead of doing it out of the kindness of her heart i wish she could just boss me around in her nice way to keep my executive dysfunctioning from impeding tasks
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Joined: 19 Dec 2017 Age: 35 Gender: Female Posts: 5,793
28 Jan 2020, 9:40 pm
I had the evening all planned out and receiving a stupid court notice ruined it. And I am trying to prevent from 'going off the rails ' i.e. keep mind distracted from that thing. And it wasn't even anything I did wrong, I wonder if insurance was misleading me and didnt actually cover it and raised my fee for nothing.
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Joined: 19 Dec 2017 Age: 35 Gender: Female Posts: 5,793
31 Jan 2020, 11:21 pm
1. Liars. 2. Non verbal kid cannot tell what is going on in his head or heart n have an appropriate response all one can do is guessm not far enough in PECs to explain 3. Liars. 4. Liars. 5. Liars. 6. This country's tolerance for and opening so many avenues for ppl to ruin each other's lives by lying, in the name of justice. 7. Being here or anywhere. 8. Liars. 9. Liars. 10. Liars
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