Fairfield's Bitching and Whining Thread

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I weigh 128 pounds now.

Hey me too!

I really just want to kill myself.

Being left alone and ignored while you're crying literally all f*****g day sucks. I guess at least I know my aunt doesn't give a s**t about me, and at least she didn't straight up snap at me to stop crying this time. lmao

I need to find a way to start eating better. I am very unhappy with my eating habits.

I've been hanging out with my cousin (the one that's my aunts granddaughter) for a couple hours and we just randomly left without warning to go get weed + I ended up getting alcohol. I dunno if my aunts going to be mad when we get back. lol

f**k it. I've almost drank a whole 6 pack of beer in a few hours after not drinking for awhile. I'm so stressed out I don't even care. I also have no weed so I need to be not sober somehow.

My aunt saw my cuts and didn't seem impressed by my excuse at all, but didnt say anything else and now I'm freaking out lowkey fuckfuckfuck

"What did you do to yourself???" "Oh the cat did that" I'm ret*d why the f**k would I say that that's so unbelievable and cliche I'm so f*****g stupid she looked so irritated and disappointed and now the vibe is so weird I want to go hide in my room forever

I want to die so bad ajwjdjgkvkbk I hate myself I want someone to like beat me to death because I deserve it for being such an annoying f*****g moron I am so ready to bang my head against something and not stop at a concussion this time

I feel like I want to just scream until my throat hurts and f*****g hit and throw s**t and bang my head against things until I can't think anymore I am so done I want to die so bad but I can't just f*****g die I hate being alive so much and I have no reason to f*****g live I will never be able to feel even content or relaxed I'm just going to feel like s**t and like I'm in constant panic until the day I die and it's never going to end

I'm so lonely and touchstarved + have been for so long (since I was a like toddler) that someone just lightly touching my back gives me a like oxytocin rush. I love it. Today one of my coworkers was talking to me while I was sitting in the breakroom and she put her hand on my shoulder, it was lowkey so nice to be touched by another human being. I wish I got touched by people more. lmaooo