I hate myself so much

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I doubt you know this, but that's why I put up hug threads or kiss threads.

I used to have a new one daily.

I know how it feels to think no one loves you.

Nothing like hugs to cure depression - though for me, I'm so scared of hugging (even virtual hugging) strangers because;

1. I'd be terrified that my motives would be misinterpreted
2. I have to wonder what my wife would think if people hugged me - she gets jealous when I just talk to people.

I went out to lunch today 'cos someone left at work - they hugged everyone goodbye but I was too scared to get a hug and just waved instead. A few people noticed.


ok ... that said - sorry for Hijacking your thread Berserker.

I'm not online all the time but if you need support/help/advice/friendship etc... I'm around.

but you do bring up an interesting thing. I want everyone to know that they don't have to do those threads if they make them feel uncomfortable. It's only for those who need and are comfortable with a virtual hug or kiss.

Thanks gbollard.

i dont know how YIM works at all. do you want to talk over PMs on WP?

Hi!
I have the same problems as you, but a lot milder.
I do know how it feels to be unloved.

In my case it was in the 5:th and 6:th grade the problem was at its worst.
I couldn´t talk to people without saying something wrong, and always when that happen, I got dragged down on ther gound by my 'friends'. (not litteraly)
They tried to build their life by destroing mine. But still I'm 15, and have taken care of most of the problems from the 6:th grade.
Your story was a lot sadder , I atleast had a very supporting mom.

First I will tell you the most important thing:

-Show your parents this webbpage
Your mom clearly don´t understand your problems, try to show her the "What is asperger" thing on the startpage, hopefully she
will understand better.

This is how I cured myself, wich in your case would be very important, to:


-Eat a good breakfast.
I used to eat very little for breakfast, usualy only a sandwitch with salami.
Later I switched to cereals.
If you eat a good breakfast you will have a lot easier to concentrate, for instance on the "signals" people are sending you. (that is, if you don´t allready eat a good breakfast, wich I thought maybe you were not, becouse of your depression, somehow)

-Drink water.
My worst misstakes was made when I was hot and thirsty, this might not be the case for you, but it was an important part of my healing .

I also had some pets that helped me throu but that option seem to be closed for you

Another thing, instead of playing videogames all day, try to use your time on something more usefull.
Like drawing, programming, to make games with Game Maker (google it, and you will find it, can´t post links just yet ) or try to join some sportclub, or even better a writingclub. I think writer would be easier than soccerplayers.

If you can draw or play sports, you will have nice card in the social game .

I really want to be your friend. Don´t know how YIM works, but feel free to PM me.

Sureee.