I feel hopeless and wann just stop living.

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04 Jan 2018, 9:07 pm

NEET.... Not in Education, Employment, Training.. i'm NEET also :mrgreen: us NEETS oughta stick together :bounce: :bounce:



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04 Jan 2018, 10:14 pm

0.o



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04 Jan 2018, 11:21 pm

Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after



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04 Jan 2018, 11:25 pm

Sly what you are doing is talking and writing without thinking. Most people think before they write and talk. I make this mistake too.



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04 Jan 2018, 11:29 pm

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Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after

ok, I get that we haven't told you want you want us here to say to you, so tell us what you want to hear from us. what sorts of things do you want to hear?



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04 Jan 2018, 11:40 pm

sly279 wrote:
Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after


Well, I tried to help. I was sympathetic to what you've told me so far. I've been clinically depressed, most of my life, I failed a suicide attempt 15 years ago. So I understand how it feels. But if you keep shrugging off shows of support and concern because they're not worded or done how you want them to be, you're dooming yourself. When you start doing that and keep doing it, you become attached to the process and in a very unhealthy way you'll start to wallow and revel in your misery and eventually you won't actually want help because it'll become such a huge part of you that you won't know who you are without it.
Support is a two sided, two way thing. You have to reach back and take the hand offered, not look somewhere else until you find the "right" hand.


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05 Jan 2018, 12:01 am

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Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after


Well, I tried to help. I was sympathetic to what you've told me so far. I've been clinically depressed, most of my life, I failed a suicide attempt 15 years ago. So I understand how it feels. But if you keep shrugging off shows of support and concern because they're not worded or done how you want them to be, you're dooming yourself. When you start doing that and keep doing it, you become attached to the process and in a very unhealthy way you'll start to wallow and revel in your misery and eventually you won't actually want help because it'll become such a huge part of you that you won't know who you are without it.
Support is a two sided, two way thing. You have to reach back and take the hand offered, not look somewhere else until you find the "right" hand.

I don’t mean you sorry :(
Others here.

People accusing me of wanting to abuse women or saying yeah no woman will want a lose like me etc.

I’ve been depressed for 5 years now. It’s probably too late then.

I’m never ever good enough for any woman.



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05 Jan 2018, 12:02 am

auntblabby wrote:
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Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after

ok, I get that we haven't told you want you want us here to say to you, so tell us what you want to hear from us. what sorts of things do you want to hear?

Or you two here. It’s people in love and dating.



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05 Jan 2018, 12:26 am

^^^sorry, I don't get your meaning..



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05 Jan 2018, 12:32 am

sly279 wrote:
LittleCoyoteKat wrote:
sly279 wrote:
Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after


Well, I tried to help. I was sympathetic to what you've told me so far. I've been clinically depressed, most of my life, I failed a suicide attempt 15 years ago. So I understand how it feels. But if you keep shrugging off shows of support and concern because they're not worded or done how you want them to be, you're dooming yourself. When you start doing that and keep doing it, you become attached to the process and in a very unhealthy way you'll start to wallow and revel in your misery and eventually you won't actually want help because it'll become such a huge part of you that you won't know who you are without it.
Support is a two sided, two way thing. You have to reach back and take the hand offered, not look somewhere else until you find the "right" hand.

I don’t mean you sorry :(
Others here.

People accusing me of wanting to abuse women or saying yeah no woman will want a lose like me etc.

I’ve been depressed for 5 years now. It’s probably too late then.

I’m never ever good enough for any woman.


It's ok. It's just that when you say things like that without being specific, we don't know exactly what you mean.

Do you believe them? Because that's what makes it mean anything. People can say mean things all day, every day, but its up to you to make the choice in whether or not you'll believe in what they're saying. And if you do believe them, and you agree, the beauty of being human is that you can change most things about yourself if you really want to.

It doesn't matter how long you've been depressed, it matters how long you've given in to letting it consume you, letting it make you feel sorry for yourself. And ultimately, even if it's been a long time, YOU get final say. You can change your mind about whether or not you want better/different/out of it.

Any woman you've met*. You're really not old, and even old people can end up meeting someone that makes whatever time they have worth it, happy, good. Like most things, it takes patience and a willingness to self evaluate your strengths and weaknesses, and then to put yourself out there once you've done any adjusting that needs doing.


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05 Jan 2018, 12:33 am

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^^^sorry, I don't get your meaning..


He's including you in his "Sorry I didn't mean you" reply he made to me.


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05 Jan 2018, 12:39 am

I'm sorry it took me so long to reply, Sly. The page keeps crashing on me.


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05 Jan 2018, 5:20 am

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Why? I’m just a useless burden on the work with no future. If I wasn’t religious I’d probably just killed my self already. I haven’t been able to figure out a way around the sin part so I haven’t done it. I just keep hoping for a freak accident. train derailed and killed bunch of people sadly I don’t ride train as I can’t afford it. But bus accidents happen so maybe som bus will crash and kill me at some point. Or there world war, or mass shootOmg or just getting hit by a car crossing the street like those poor kids. What I don’t get is why godnkilled those kids and those people who all mean something and have life’s and futures but keeps me alive to suffer.


Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes we just don't know what that reason is yet. You're alive because it's not your time to go yet & you must have some purpose to fulfill. I hope you'll get to do something someday that helps make it all make sense, why you're here, what your purpose is.

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Wish this site was actually supoort. I feel it’s actually made me more depressed then I would been if I’ve never came here.ill litterally wake up ok come here then feel like slitting my wrist after


It isn't? I see tons of people replying to you posts with support. What sort of responses would you prefer?

My wish for you, sly, is that you'd Try various things to treat your depression and see if they work for you. Once you figure out how to overcome this depressed state your entire life will improve. There are many ways to treat depression. I've found some that have been life changing for me & I'd be more than happy to discuss them with you if you're interested in trying any of them.


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05 Jan 2018, 10:45 am

Yep, Sly. You start threads----and they go to 16 pages or more.

I start a thread---and I usually get like 3 responses!



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06 Jan 2018, 1:49 am

I feel super horrible I hate this site and the people it allows to be here and make me feel horrible for existing. I disagree with them so they say I’m horrible and should t be in a relationship they call me misogynistic or racist. I hate them :( I don’t like hating but to me their horrible and I wish they’d leave me alone. I’m not going back to that thread. I dont know if I’ll message those women back I feel sick thinking about it and freeze up. And this probably close chance I have to finding someone in long while :(

One messaged me bunch earlier today and then just few mins ago :(



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06 Jan 2018, 1:54 am

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Yep, Sly. You start threads----and they go to 16 pages or more.

I start a thread---and I usually get like 3 responses!

Cause people hate me. And so come to my threads do bash me. Atleast for ones outside heaven