...I'll talk about what I did to-day. Wske-up time is 5 AM? 5:30? It is straining to prepare things and go to the bathroom, bsrrgoot carrying my shoes, to change my underwear there, etc., including the bathroom business - and getting my osntd and shoes is fifficulttiring, requiring me to lean against something
. Being in the bathroom a long time meant thst I miss ed the breakfast entirely.
We went to the drop-off (and pick-up) spot. It was 7:25 AM or so. I took a bus to Watsonville an hoit/ish away for somewhere to go. And I thought I'd dose off in the bud seat. get a little more sleep. However, the psin/stinging in various points of me really made me not comfortable
. I hung around the E'Ville bus station, tried to lie down on the sidewalk to get warmth got my bavk, but the guard wouldn't let me. Hung around a little more, back to Santa zCruz. again could not really doze off
.
I had thought zI'd go to a store and the library in SC but I just felt do tired so went to the drop-off spot, where a lot of homeless hang about. and lay down in the sun to stretch out and get some sun on me, which might deal with the pain, and get some more sleep. I did get sleep, and lots of sun - probably a but too much, but it did calm me dome. Getting up a bit before 3 PM??, it was really too late to do the going to the planned Cruz places.and make use of them and get back by 5 for the official pick-up. I am just so slow-walking:-(. Before I had left for Watsonville I had had some food st a stand in the bus station. In theory, I am trying to reduce to two meals a day.
I did not buy more food, but bough a liter of strawberry Brisk. Fluid, and filling my stomach. I do get nothing-added water from the fountain and place it in bottled and put this sugar-free zVtydtal Light-type feet drink powder in one of the water bottles. the other one pure. I had been trying to get sunlight/heat on torso/back, and did really tried for it there, with the sun-heated wooden benched.
It nearing 5, I walked down to the pick-up spot. I lay down on madam, to stretch out more. I had to wait a while to get on the very small van to go back to the shelter. This turned out to be nice
. - the streched-out position I was in let the psin go away - and the perpetual ache/hurting/in m u stomach and my perpetual out-of-breathness stopped! 
Unfortunately. this shows by contrast how poorly I generally feel
. zit was lying relatively flat on my bsck, on this pavement, with hot dun shining on me, to make it go away. It shows how do really need to be in a situation of being able to stay in a room a great deal of the time to make the pain go awaym:cry: m
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.

My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!