scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Content in my inner world.

Mind 8.

Body failing 3.

2

Stomach....... cramping.........

Constipation?

Try Ex-Lax or Prune Juice, or fruit that's high in fiber.

+ OVER 9000!! !

I just waved and gave thumbs up at random strangers with flowers in my hair.

Cool, that's a step toward assertiveness.

-10

I can't stand my second job. I feel like I should just kill myself.

Get a new job, it would probably be less traumatic.

People do that because it's their way of showing love. I've known at least three people that are mean to show their love. (My sister, one of my old roommates, and a friend of mine)

8 - just finished watching the LDS General Conference and eating the food that I made for a cooking competition. I did miss getting out a few salmon bones, and I can't describe how disgusting crunched up salmon-bone is in the mouth, although it is edible...
I have my lab final for Human Anatomy tomorrow, and I'm going to get ripped apart.
Making As in my other classes is quite possible, though. Not my film class, but I should make a B/B+ there. ^_^ I decided that neuroanthropology has to be the most amazing field that I can go into...otherwise, it'd probably be neuroscience.

Or Benefibre Orange Creme Chewable Tablet. They seriously taste like candy, not like meds
So yummy!
They work too!

No death! If anybody should die, it would be me, okay?
I'm not going to, but you're not either. (Or else I'll have to get the demons from my closet to feast on your soul )
Why don't you get another job? Maybe something that you somewhat like. I'm planning on working at a local Chapters organzating books and helping people find stuff. (I hope I can never be the cashier though - I would have a meltdown within fourty-five minutes!)

No ebec, you shouldn't die either.

I don't know what number I feel now.

I think I may have crossed my breaking point. I have a kind of mania and a desire for revenge but I don't know what I want revenge for or what will satisfy me. Not like a violent revenge but I desire some degree of justice for the crap I've taken all my life. I find myself laughing for no reason and it kind of worries me a little.

That's Jesus' job. Although if I were to pick someone it would probably be Dick Cheney. Don't even think like that, though.

Still -9. I'm not suicidal right now but I'm very disappointed with life.

I seriously think I may need psychiatric help. I was depressed while ago and then something inside me snapped and I've been like this ever since. I'm scared but at the same time I have this grin that won't leave my face. I may just try to go to sleep and see how I feel when I get up. Have I gone crazy?

I've had that before myself, many times.
Do you feel like you've gone numb, in a way? Like suddenly, nothing matters and tearing up anyone or anything that comes your way sounds great? In that case, hole up for a while until the numbness passes- for me, it comes as quickly as it goes. When it's over, go see someone. If you see them immediately, you may be a danger to yourself and others.
If not, then do what you can to distract yourself. I've had uncontrollable laughter coupled with extremely violent motives arising in my head...in that case, stay away from society in general until it passes.

The texture of salmon bones sitting in a soupy mix for ages is still in my mouth and crunching in between my teeth--it was like a mixture in between chalk, salt, and glass. I keep dry-gagging every time I think about it. It was scary to crush nearly an entire salmon spine in my hand, and accidentally having some in my food either--auugh!

I had a severe stimming moment while in the bathroom, I haven't had a real, 'obvious' session of stimming for a long time, and I haven't had a biting one since I was about 3 or 4. For about five minutes, I could not stop biting myself. I've been under a huge amount of stress of late, and over the last few days, I'm losing functionality socially. I can't get myself out of my apartment, not even to my second job, and my last line of defense seems to be how I come off. I asked my roommates about how I've been acting the last few days--they all said that I was normal.

Well, I think I'm going off the deep end, S.Fantom, on the big diving board this time...

-20, have the worst migraine, I am tired, been driving most of the day, then a 4 hour greyhound bus ride back to calgary from edmonton, was supposed to get a lift from a supposed friend but didn't, and ended up walking 3km though wet snow, and got covered head to toe in water, by some a**hole swerving into a puddle, I f*****g hate people!

Agreed.