I have cyclothymia and my mother doubted I even had that. I was diagnosed with Bipolar I at a mental hospital last year, and she told her sister that I was AS and not bipolar (as if they don't go together ever) and that they just labeled me bipolar so that I could get into the hospital for free and get my meds. She was in denial. Then she told me, "You are not bipolar! You don't even have cyclothymia! People who have cyclothymia are like this, you're not!" She said, "You went along with it and they thought you were bipolar and now you're losing your child because of it! And Child Protective Services was called to the hospital when your son was born because it was on the hospital records that you were bipolar! But you just went along with it and found it funny! You were saying, 'I got diagnosed with bipolar!' and laughing. Now it's coming back on you." Then suddenly, she said that maybe I do have bipolar, and to mention the AS and the bipolar to my next shrink, and that what I had was more than just cyclothymia. What a turnaround! My boyfriend thinks it's good, that now she's supporting me more and realizing what problems I had and that I was indeed bipolar. I'm starting to wonder if I'm really bipolar myself, or just cyclothymic, but I know that I'm one or the other.
Right now I'm going up and down a lot. Right now I'm having more downs than ups.
07 Jun 2009, 8:27 am
