Joined: 3 Feb 2009 Age: 43 Gender: Female Posts: 1,577
16 Jul 2009, 8:08 pm
I don't know what to say.
You're 19, you shouldn't have such rigid rules applied on you. Your reaction makes some sense as you sound like you have been teased about lots of painful things and thus would want to prevent more of the same. Though there also seems to be a part of you that wants to be social but you think badly of yourself because of things that people have done to you in the past.
Your feelings do matter. I don't know any usefull advice for you though. I hope things improve for you.