Fusterated with life, Can't Move on, Things not going my way

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I woke up angry this morning, My step mother asked what's wrong, I just said that the laundry isn't dry yet just to end the question. I can't really talk about it to my parents because they wouldn't give me the answer that I want nor can they relate to me in anything (Aspie, Trigendered, and Personality Type).

Today I'm going to voluenteer at The Public Access TV Station that I usually voluenteer at, part of me wants to do it and part of me doesn't. I feel that I've done it sence of 2006 and I want to move onto something new but there isn't anything so......And the experience volunteering will build up on my resume since I'm in the media field already.

I grow tired of having to live with my Serious Personalitied Parents. They decided to give themselves the whole fliping week to go on Vacation by staying in the house. So in other words I have to wake up in the morning with a fake smile on my face and try to act un-fusterated towards them. I always have to hide my fusteration otherwise I would have to have a huge discusion and get the answer "You have nothing to be fusterated for, you don't pay the bills here, now that's something to get fusterated over, Do you realize what nice things we do for you? etc" and just missing my point completely because they'll never understand me ever, that's just the way it is.

I'm also fusterated that I'm still single, and to make it harder, I'm Trigendered so I'm attracted to Masculine Gendered Women (Women who dress, act and talk like a Guy). So I still don't have a Tom-Boyfriend.

My artwork still isn't noticed enough, I do Social Political Satire through animation and puppetry by the way. I'm glad that my show left public access to continue on the internet so it can gain a larger audience. But still.............

I feel that my life is just plain slow. I feel that in my areas of successes, love and social life, and living on my own should have came sooner in my life.

Sure that I might be getting my own appartment and my driver's lisense next month or so but still......my social life still hasn't improved. I blam sociaty judements and no people that I can relate too.

Are you anywhere near Atlanta? They have the Center for Puppetry Arts. I never visited when I lived there, but it seems like a fun place:

http://www.puppet.org/

Oh dear. Kinda see your frustrations with family, had similar.
Wish I did for you: don't have any immediate answers, sorry.

With your parents, looking at your ENTP there, so much of the rest of people are ISTJ. They see life as conformity, associations, clubs, meetings, fitting in.
"In order to be happy, you have to be like us."
Yeah.

Right.
Quite un-helpfully to people like me, an INFP, they see those not like them as needing 'help' and the way to 'help' is to make the non-ISTJ like the ISTJ, because after all, "In order to be happy, you have to be like us.".

It took me 20 years to find the right woman for me - really, really, d@%^ frustrating.
Much disappointment felt along the way.
Still have resentful feelings about it taking that long.
I did survive, did make it to this point.

That's all I can say. Can't fix things. Would like to be able to.
Just hang on.
Hang on.

http://www.puppet.org/Center Puppetry Arts
Holy @@@@! What a museum