Why do I worry all the time

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I hate Asperger's because I'm a satirist and humorist and by belief is if it's odviously funny, it's fair game. I'm not suppost to worry about my irreverent sense of humor or my satire targets (usually celebrites or jerks that I incounter in society without using their real name). Sometimes I feel that I'm the only one of the planet who has an irreverent sense of humor so I start to get anxiety and depressed, first depressed because I feel no one can relate to my ability to laugh at the world and two I feel that everyone else doesn't have this sense of humor so they are going to go after me in an angry fashion. I'm a careing person so I only satirize the bullies who deserve it, not the innocent, and If there was something funny about someone who was innocent, I would parody them in a more positive light kind friendly manner.

My parents as kind, caring and supportive as they are to me, they are serious people with no sense of humor. Their personality types are ISTJ and ISTP, where I am ENFP and people who I would like to meet are ENTPs.

One of the things that I've learned from the ENTP message forum that I go to is "Know your audience." I want to meet people like that who can appreciate Irreverent senses of Humor. Without humor it's a scary place to live in, a lot of times I do fear the world within that light.

Well, I don't see why you would be. After all, I'd be one of your dumb little fangirls if I knew you, as I am a dumb little fangirl to another person with an irreverent sense of humor.

I just went to volunteer at the public access station. The people are there are nice but one thing that I need to do is to move on from the past insident of what happened back in March where I can a cartoon newscaster tell a fake fictional newscast stating that I chicken out while commiting suicide. Someone didn't get that it was a joke so the station called up the police to make sure that a wasn't suicidal. That was in the past and the people over there are nice people but my show isn't on public access anymore, it's on the internet. I'm not sure that I can say that I miss being on public access, I know that they keep switching the censorship time, it went from 10pm to 2am to 10pm again. I was joking around and told one of the bosses there "That's why I left and switched to the internet". They laughted at my comment with a smile "yeah."

But I often worry about myself. I'm not a mean person, I'm a very kind person. I just have an irreverent sense of humor and I do it through puppets and cartoon animation. I think I was the only person in CT to experiment with that on public access.

At times I feel lonely and worry if I'm the only person who watches show's like South Park and has an irreverent sense of humor?

Someone told me, Know your audience and I think know I know that people and artists my age watch irreverent stuff on the internet because it's not on public access. Public Access is usually for Older aged adults, elderly and religious folk or basicly people who love their town and community and want to watch something more G rated.

I feel that I'm the only being in this world who has an appreciation for irreverent humor. It's sucks having Asperger's, I wouldn't be constaintly worrying about something that happened to me in March which was just a misunderstanding. Plus my social life would have been better.