Welll its seems im gonna be this way for quite awhile. Nothing i can take do be done to me is gonna have much of a chance making anything better. I need my parents to help but i hate their guts for what they did to me, i like the the thing s they do that i them for. I live in hell no matter where i am or what i do, i am horribly disabled and cant really do anything anymore. My dad really hostile and intolerant of my problems. I have diffuculty being in public now and the last authentic bit of me died a few weeks ago Lots of my people that i have really seem have stopped seeing me as the guy that could go all the way and now as the very damage problematic person and general give bs answers to stuff. Its very obvious to me how pathetic and horrible i am and the situation is, especially getting into arguments with parents and having endless pointless converstations with the bizzare people proffesionals and web boards . I m not not really sure as what do to in terms of the overall future or whatever. THe the only thing i know is i f*****g hate being this asstard that i have been turned into and have anychance of a real existance for the immediate future ruined
05 Aug 2009, 1:23 pm
