Anger, Stress, Anxiety and Depression

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I'm not sure if a lot of Aspies are a like when it comes with Stress so I'm just going to jot down what makes me stressed. I hate it when people yell and get angry, it doesn't matter if it's an arguement in my home that has nothing to do with me or something on Reality TV. Anger Yelling sets me off to where I get extreme. I start screaming and start punching walls then I get a feeling where I feel scared and unsafe. To set the record straight for myself, I'm not Suicidal or Homocidal, I don't act to those inappropirate actions. But yeah, that sets me off or if someone is fusterated at me, It's like all of my extreme emotions tackle me until my meltdown ends with me crying and laying on my floor or something wishing that someone would give me a hug and tell me that everything is going to be alright and I didn't do anything wrong.

It goes from Extreme Anger, Extreme Fear and Unsafeness, to being warn out crying.


I heard my parents yelling at eachother down stairs about The Dogs getting sick or something, I went down to the basement punching my plastic bins and swearing underneith my breath.

Yesterday a friend of mine sends me a video link from the True Real TV channel and the video kind of upsets me because it showed something yelling in anger at someone goofing around.

I even get nervious if I hear my parents walking around the house because I feel that they are just going to sneak up to my bedroom door, knock on it and give me shocking news to upset me. Sometimes they say things that piss me off or ask me dumb questions that are too personal,........*sigh* It totally sucks having Asperger's!

I can relate to some extent. I sometimes get in a meltdown when others are angry, because the screaming or irritability overwhelms me. But I can get into meltdowns for many other reasons. When I do, my experence is like yours: I go from extreme anger/rage to anxiety/panic to sadness or guilt (and sometimes back).

I generally try to avoid situations that get me angry.

When it's something extreme (like some of my parents mind games, or someone waking me up in the middle of the night, REPEATEDLY... (yes, with a sleep disorder there are few greater offences)), sometimes I get angry.


People get SCARED when I'm angry, even if in my own mind, I'm being reasonable. Like, asking someone to just try to be quiet at 3 in the morning, after they wake me up for whatever reason (with my recent roommates last year, coming home from partying or some stupid crap like that).

I usually would rather shut down than explode.

yes. all of the above.

You know what sucks about Asperger's is when you tell people that you feel dangeriously depressed, they would think that your mentally ill and suicidal and deserve to be in a nut home. People don't realize how painful having Asperger's really is.

When my show used to be on public access, I had a cartoon newcaster tell this fake report on me saying "Eric Crooks tryed to commit suicide but he chickened out".

This caused an out cry and I had to explain to the public access station and to my parents that This is considered Asperger's humor because we feel depressed all the time because we can't see social cues so in our culture,jokes about Depression and Suicide is funny because we have dressed thoughts all the time, it's just how we maturly handle these feelings. I have the gift and talent of satirical comedy writting. But I guess in the NT world, joking about suicide is as bad as a bomb threat or something iqnorant like that. I don't know, I'm not NT! I feel my only connection with the NT world is my sense of humor and once that is misunderstood, YEAH THERE'S MY DEPRESSED FEELINGS! I HOPE YOUR HAPPY YOUR IQNORANT NTS! You know what I mean fellow Aspies?

I understand your frustration ericc, I am older and should be able to cope better in life but I can't. I hate it when people argue or fight about anything it makes me feel scared and I wish I could run away and hide. I can also take out my own frustration in the form of attacking someone verbally, I usually only hit things that arn't people or animals. That can still be seen as violence by NT's.

I agree that it is painful to have aspergers and the NT's just don't understand how this leads to anxiety and depression. As I have become older I've tried harder and harder to integrate myself into the NT world but at the end of a long frustrating, confusing day, everything falls in a heap for me and I end up hating life and feeling more aspie and alone than ever.

Yeah I know the feeling. Today I feel kind of depressed and stressed out. I'm on a Non-Binary Gender forum (meaning that even though I am Male, I'm not 100% masculine and into sports and dominance and stuff like that) so I ask a simple question and here comes people completely messing up a scientific theory that makes sense and start talking vague about it. That ticks me off but now I know my theory is right now.

I recently made an animated cartoon for The Spike and Mike Sick and Twisted Festival of Animation, I still need to send it out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnDKfudeozU

I'm very proud of it but at the same time, I'm scared and terrifide that angry people are going to come after me for no real reason. But one of the things that I've got to learn is that everyone makes mistakes and people are going to correct you no matter what. Being a Satirist or not.


I remember thinking about past mistakes that I've made in my life and I just said to myself

"WHY CAN'T I MOVE ON?"


One thing that helped me get back into my trademark "Care-Free" self is when I talk to people that I can relate to. Though I rarely see people like that. I can't relate to my parents, most of the friends that I've made through the years I'm still in contact with but they live far away and they are hard to get a hold of contact wise, either busy with work or busy with their relationships.


Speaking of relationships, it's a good thing that I cuddle with my pillows at night, otherwise I would constantly worry and cry myself to sleep.

I like the cartoon. I don't think you have to worry about a backlash from oppinionated religeous, NT, normal gendered people or anything. Your work is realy good and I enjoy satire. I think a lot of AS people have a sarcastic way of viewing their world. If anyone complains F them.

I have always dealt with some sort of anxiety or stress almost daily.The only place I feel I am free of it, is at work when most of my work is done and I am ahead.Loneliness contributes to my stress.I am happy at work because at work there is always somebody to talk to and it enables me to try and practice my eye contact and such free of pressure since Red Deer is a city and not a small town so if I offend a random person, it is not the end of the world but a learning experience.

High school was the worst and college is kinda well sorta iffy.I don't tell much personal info to my college classmates and when they ask me something I feel is a little bit too much, it triggers memories of high school, and I automatically go into defensive mode.I was so hellbent on survival in high school, that it is now permanent and I give the same defensive reaction in high school.I am always "looking over my shoulder" for potential threats.

Everyday loneliness due to being ignored has caused me to be completely sad or going through mood swings.It seems like I never feel happy.When Im not feeling sad, I am feeling numb and it seems like I have no emotion.

I hear ya ericc. I've had that s**t buzzing around me all my life, I've hardened. But boy does it leave me tired and brain-bruised, I feel like a meerkat on the outlook for predators 24/7.