Have you ever had this feeling? I didn't know if I should put this in either Friendship Skills or Relationships but it's hard for everything in my social life. There's people that I know that are nice but they can't relate to my personality or understand my Asperger's. I've might have mentioned this a thousand times before or back in March but I do a puppet satire show and when I used to be on public access TV, I made a fictional joke on myself making fun of the typical depression feelings that all Aspies have that went like "in Augest of 2009, Eric tryed to commit suicide but he chickened out". Of course no one got the joke, someone complained and the public access station called the police on me just to make sure that I wasn't going to commit suicide. They later appoligized to me for doing that. It's been hard to move on from that situation. My show is on the internet now and I no longer do dark jokes on myself sense then. I still volunteer at the public access station on one show, no one is angry with me, in fact they still smile when I come in to volunteer. But I still have bitter feelings about the station. I just volunteer for the media experience for my resume. That and I have two friends who I help out with setting up their show.
I do have family trouble. Most of the time, I just want to yell and scream at my parents so they can back off and get out of my way, especially first thing in the morning. I'm not close to them at all. Don't get me wrong, they are kind supportive parents survival wise, they just not emotionally nuturing at all. We are completely different, based on the Myers Briggs Personality Indicatior I am ENFP and they are like ISTJ.
Plus I'm 21 and I've never had a loving relationship. Though my type is ENTP Masculine Non-Binary Gendered Women, they seem to be impossible to find. I wished, even pray to God that I was in a relationship like that, maybe most of my worries would go away.
I feel if I don't have people to relate to in my life, I start to worry and loose all self-confidence within myself, and it's hard to gain that self-confidence.